Its been a while since i wrote in here, mostly pestering my secret live journal account, and didnt think anyone really went though here anyways. I dunno, trying to find a job, figuring out things late in life, thats sorta what ive been up to. My best friend just started hormones last month, kinda makes me jellous, but being the mammoth that i am i...
Read More
Read More
Rwar my friend said he was gonna swing by and give me his old scanner whee!!! that means i can scan drawings again! And i just spent 12 hours at my desk today drawing like crazy after a 2 month dry spell, i feel much better now.
I wish i could scan some of this stuff, but i did a quick sketch on the computer...
Read More
I wish i could scan some of this stuff, but i did a quick sketch on the computer...
Read More
leena1:
hey... just wanted to compliment ur sketches... they kick ass!
Hmmmm...... Thinks are not getting done anywhere in my life, except for playing online characters 
I always seem to be down starting in November, till after New Years, i guess its just the time of year, but i guess i better get things straight.
Next year i think im gonna plan to hide in a hole for 2 months and not come out, i think...
Read More
I always seem to be down starting in November, till after New Years, i guess its just the time of year, but i guess i better get things straight.
Next year i think im gonna plan to hide in a hole for 2 months and not come out, i think...
Read More
elan:
OMG you're art is awesome! Its not right that simple sketches could look so good! I envy you 
Well im feeling alot better than yesterday, aside from a slight bit of drama, where i was making a joke about a friend and didnt realize he was around and could hear me, we hadda talk today though and he said he accepted my apology, cant afford to loose friends right now, im new here so i dont got many Lonelyness suxors
Anyhoo, i added...
Read More
Lonelyness suxors
Anyhoo, i added...
Read More
mogwai72:
Glad your feeling better. Now stop being jealous!
BTW, my girlfriend saw your picture and said she thought you looked like a girl.
Hmm... I"m hungry. Bring me some breakfast.
BTW, my girlfriend saw your picture and said she thought you looked like a girl.
Hmm... I"m hungry. Bring me some breakfast.
Lets try this again.
Hello everyone, I'm eating a turkey sandwitch, oh yea and i like drawing. The holidays just sorta wizzed by and all that jazz, usually it's the time when i get mad at everything the most. Funny though, im not usually used to getting mad, upset, yes, depressed, yes, anger is not a normal trait.
I suppose as an artist, to experience...
Read More
Hello everyone, I'm eating a turkey sandwitch, oh yea and i like drawing. The holidays just sorta wizzed by and all that jazz, usually it's the time when i get mad at everything the most. Funny though, im not usually used to getting mad, upset, yes, depressed, yes, anger is not a normal trait.
I suppose as an artist, to experience...
Read More
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
raver:
It sux when they do that!!! Mines was Hel 
mogwai72:
Okay... I'm confused. Was the person Raver was talking about a girl who became a guy who dated his friend, or did the friend's boyfriend become a girl? Anyway...
Saw your reply on my post Nanotat. No need to be jealous of my surgical pictures. It was only an overbite/underbite correction (i had both). The surgeon was cool and threw in cheek implants at cost because he really thought I would benefit from it.
Just so you know, I'm 31 now and didn't start my transition until I was 29. I didn't start living 100% full time until just under a year ago. So, you know, if it's what you want you're still pretty young. I still got a pretty good reaction from hormones, even at my old age. I won't encourage you either way though, you just have to know it's right. But like Raver said, if you want it enough, you can make it happen.
Saw your reply on my post Nanotat. No need to be jealous of my surgical pictures. It was only an overbite/underbite correction (i had both). The surgeon was cool and threw in cheek implants at cost because he really thought I would benefit from it.
Just so you know, I'm 31 now and didn't start my transition until I was 29. I didn't start living 100% full time until just under a year ago. So, you know, if it's what you want you're still pretty young. I still got a pretty good reaction from hormones, even at my old age. I won't encourage you either way though, you just have to know it's right. But like Raver said, if you want it enough, you can make it happen.
Well i was writting a log meaningfull first journal entry when someone messaged me a link on AIM that i clicked upon, only to soon be faced with the consequence of loosing my journal entry because the link did not create a new window.....
Mabye I'll get motivated once again sometime soon to write what i came here to write.
Mabye I'll get motivated once again sometime soon to write what i came here to write.
nanotot:
Lets try this again.
Hello everyone, I'm eating a turkey sandwitch, oh yea and i like drawing. The holidays just sorta wizzed by and all that jazz, usually it's the time when i get mad at everything the most. Funny though, im not usually used to getting mad, upset, yes, depressed, yes, anger is not a normal trait.
I suppose as an artist, to experience anger is a good thing, usually i go by with not experiencing any emotions, which kinda sucks, so i guess some negative energy might turn out to be a good thing after all, its better than no energy i suppose, which is the norm, well for me anyways.
You might ask, what am i angry about? Well i dunno if anyone is actually reading this, or if anyone out of that imaginary handfull readers can even relate, but im angry at myself, for not getting things done. "What things?" you may ask, unless you have an anologous brain that just reads without thinking much, or is that even a word........ anyhoo, i guess i dont get anything accomplished. Why should it matter to anyone, i dunno, your the one reading this!
So now you know that im an angry artist, and by the way ive been putting some serious thought into being a chick lately. Oh yea, now thats something to be angry about, i suppose, but just being a chick isnt as easy as it sounds, coming to a decision like that is very, um, life altering and not reversable. Coming from a sheltered christian background, (My pappy is a preacher) knowing what was going on with me when i was young was really hard to fathom, well i knew i wanted to be a girl i suppose, but i just never related it to being something that could be accomplished. Then when i actually was more self aware, it didnt really matter because my social conditioning had made me a coward on all fronts.
So then you move out and life goes on, but being as old as i am now, i really got upset i waited so long, coz now, ive grown up alot, it will be hard to hide many things that are considered masculene, and it raises serious doubts as to wether or not i will be passible, and being passible is key to me, i know that is weakness on my part to care what others think, but i dont want to be some freak, when im a perfectly okay guy, though horribly insain.
So what do i do with myself? No clue, but when i have time to think about anything, this sticks out like a metal stake in my head. Ugh, and im a bad speller.
Anyway, i spoke enough, wonder if anyone will read this : O
Hello everyone, I'm eating a turkey sandwitch, oh yea and i like drawing. The holidays just sorta wizzed by and all that jazz, usually it's the time when i get mad at everything the most. Funny though, im not usually used to getting mad, upset, yes, depressed, yes, anger is not a normal trait.
I suppose as an artist, to experience anger is a good thing, usually i go by with not experiencing any emotions, which kinda sucks, so i guess some negative energy might turn out to be a good thing after all, its better than no energy i suppose, which is the norm, well for me anyways.
You might ask, what am i angry about? Well i dunno if anyone is actually reading this, or if anyone out of that imaginary handfull readers can even relate, but im angry at myself, for not getting things done. "What things?" you may ask, unless you have an anologous brain that just reads without thinking much, or is that even a word........ anyhoo, i guess i dont get anything accomplished. Why should it matter to anyone, i dunno, your the one reading this!
So now you know that im an angry artist, and by the way ive been putting some serious thought into being a chick lately. Oh yea, now thats something to be angry about, i suppose, but just being a chick isnt as easy as it sounds, coming to a decision like that is very, um, life altering and not reversable. Coming from a sheltered christian background, (My pappy is a preacher) knowing what was going on with me when i was young was really hard to fathom, well i knew i wanted to be a girl i suppose, but i just never related it to being something that could be accomplished. Then when i actually was more self aware, it didnt really matter because my social conditioning had made me a coward on all fronts.
So then you move out and life goes on, but being as old as i am now, i really got upset i waited so long, coz now, ive grown up alot, it will be hard to hide many things that are considered masculene, and it raises serious doubts as to wether or not i will be passible, and being passible is key to me, i know that is weakness on my part to care what others think, but i dont want to be some freak, when im a perfectly okay guy, though horribly insain.
So what do i do with myself? No clue, but when i have time to think about anything, this sticks out like a metal stake in my head. Ugh, and im a bad speller.
Anyway, i spoke enough, wonder if anyone will read this : O