*sigh* to who ever even read this (and im pretty sure no one does but meh , its ok i guess..i just feel like getting this out there. out of my system)
am i the only simply getting down every single time i see a couple all cuddly and happy together? a "cute" little post on facebook? or simply people having a great relationship and healty sex life.
i know they are not doing so to laugh at me but i feel like everyone is simply pushing me aside and pointing me. making fun of me...
guess what? that girl i tried to go for....for 6 goddamn months...shu just decided to simply go back with her ex...not even warning me. not even giving me a reason why she suddently wasnt interested anymore.
da fuck is wrong with me? i really want to know what the hell is SOoooooo wrong with me that it always end like this? i am really this terrible?....i dont feel like i am. im trying my best to make everyone happy. im pretty gentle and funny in my own way...what the hell am i lacking?
am i ugly? i dont think i am. im not a model but im not ugly.
is it because every girl on this damn planet only wants that "badass" dude thats no one can get?
i really dont know anymore. i dont even know why i am still trying to figure this shit out....
im sorry ladies but...you guys are so freaking hard to understand sometimes...its unbelievable.
am i the only simply getting down every single time i see a couple all cuddly and happy together? a "cute" little post on facebook? or simply people having a great relationship and healty sex life.
i know they are not doing so to laugh at me but i feel like everyone is simply pushing me aside and pointing me. making fun of me...
guess what? that girl i tried to go for....for 6 goddamn months...shu just decided to simply go back with her ex...not even warning me. not even giving me a reason why she suddently wasnt interested anymore.
da fuck is wrong with me? i really want to know what the hell is SOoooooo wrong with me that it always end like this? i am really this terrible?....i dont feel like i am. im trying my best to make everyone happy. im pretty gentle and funny in my own way...what the hell am i lacking?
am i ugly? i dont think i am. im not a model but im not ugly.
is it because every girl on this damn planet only wants that "badass" dude thats no one can get?
i really dont know anymore. i dont even know why i am still trying to figure this shit out....
im sorry ladies but...you guys are so freaking hard to understand sometimes...its unbelievable.
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i thought i did something wrond so i stopped to not spam her with calls and all.
and - out of nowhere. she tells me she back with her ex.
i was frustrated and mad at first. but i knew right from the beginning to not get my hopes high so the sadness and anger went away quicker. if she happy with him - cool
but why? why not tell me? if she simply decided to go back with him like that - she had to be seeing him in the same period of time I was seeing her...yet she told me all these nice things.
its to a point that i feel like or there is something incredibly wrong with me and im somewhat not aware - or - women are secretly ploting against me to make me suffer (lol overkill)
anyways. ill stay in the quote on quote friendzone. im not good with women by the look of it so ill stick with being a good friend. + i could sell my life to make the sequel to 40 years old and still a virgin