nanookyeux

I'm thanking Wes for giving me a topic to write about tonight lol. The love of my life.

let's stick together till the war is won me and you we gonna fight together we gonna fight forever until the war is won now you and me and friends and family we gonna stick together till the war is done

The love of my life honestly, is Sean Williams. That kid has cozied up to a special place in my heart to stay. He's tall and skinny with red curly hair. Totally not my type, except for the kind of man he is. He's loyal, trusting, respectful, and he's a man. Me and that kid have gotten to insane points that have pushed the limits of our friendship to the extreme. rolling on a shit load of x and chillen on my couch naked and being totally cool. nothing happened or came close to it. it was just us sitting talking rolling and enjoying the high. we've slept in the same bed and been okay, we'ze snuggled, cozied, and done all sorts of things together that you only trust your close friends with.

let's stick together until the war is won me and you we gonna fight together we gonna fight forever till the war is won won now you and me and friends and family we gonna stick together until the war is done

every time i listen to the kotton mouth kings i think of him too. that's kind of like our thing. the first time i ever hung out with sean was when i started hanging out and skipping school to hang out with derek to smoke and then me and sean started smoken together and then we worked at the pool together and it just went from there. the first one to get me to love KMK was sean. he just makes me feel safe. he's got a girlfriend though. megan in portland. she's awesome too. he loves her so much. this is where it gets twisted.

as much as i love sean to death, i wouldn't do anything to ruin what he has with megan. he loves her so much and she loves him too. and because of that i just stay friends and don't try to do anything shaddy to trick him like another woman would. yes i could take initiative and try to claim what i want, but i'm not like that. i cherish sean's friendship too much to ever put it at stake by pissing him off by hitting on him. i mean we've flirted, but it's just dirty talk. it's like i'm one of the guy but i'm a girl so i receive all the comments they would say about the hottie walking by. so ofcourse i hear some dirty shit but i know it's all in good fun even if it is half serious we know the boundaries. me and sean haven't even ever kissed. it's no problem for us to be around each other and be totally comfortable. and he looks out for me. i love that. when i'm fucked up and i start blabbering to him he stops and listens and yeah know determines if i'm okay and whatnot, helps me get home, sits up with me all hours of the night. answers my late night drunk dials even if he has to get up early. he just is very attentive. i love it.

i miss him alot and he is ultimatly what it is i want in a man, but i'm starting to think that breed is only the home grown. the AK i mean. i haven't found a guy who does that for me yet. whose personality just radiates so much that if i wasn't attracted before, i am now kind of thing. here it is layen out. here's the requirements boys.

skater/punk but not extreme. you are comfortable in your clothes and don't try to hard to look nice. but you're clean (for the most part)

you respect women, but you know how to sweet talk them and get on their good side when they're angry.

you're giving. you take care of your friends and your family whenever possible, and you're always will to help out.

you have goals and ambitions that are in the middle of persuing as we speak.

you must be a smoker. pot is a big part of my life and i hold it sacred. you must understand this and agree.

you must know how to have fun when partying, i like men that are the life of the party because i need someone to help pull me out of my shell. you're not forceful but you know how to coax me.

you cuddle
you pamper.

nobody will ever stack up to sean, but i'll let you know if you're getting close. i'm ready to share my life, i need a good guy friend, we'll see where it goes.


good luck

nana