nakedkittycat

So I am going to confess, I have been a terrible person in the past. I didn't deserve a lot of respect or love at all a few years ago. I was on a downward spiral, and there was no one there that had to balls enough to tell me that. They kept feeding all of my terrible obsessions to me, and no one would tell me I was wrong. But, this is going to sound terrible, if it weren't for me being that way then, I would never be who I am now.

I was a cheating liar, all the time, every second I got, I would cheat on my boyfriends. If I wasn't with more than one person at a time I wasn't happy. I needed all of that attention, all the time. I was never happy with myself and I just wanted to hear that other people loved me, that they needed me. But they didn't love me, they loved my sexuality and my obsession with sex.

Even after all the terrible things I did I don't regret it. What I do regret is anyone that I hurt in the process. Then one night I reconnected with my first crush from high school, after seven years, after we had went our separate ways, it was like things had never changed. This was the only guys in history I had ever approached and went after. Haha I still remember being that 14 year old girl, at my first high school dance and seeing that boy break dancing. I couldn't help but approach him after so much debating and not caring one bit if I got rejected. And thank the heavens above that I did.

Now I am going to marry that boy, and I have never been this is love. He is the ideal person for me, he supports me in everything I want to do. He encourages me no matter what. We help each other out. Never put each other down. Even with knowing how terrible my past was, he gave me that chance, and I am thankful for it every day.

We have been through the most terrible things together, that we have experienced so far. Poverty, losing both of our jobs, terrible living conditions, not being able to do anything that made us happy. But we worked through it, it was stressful, but we made it through. Now we have a great little apartment, with our animals. He is a head mechanical engineer now. I'm going to be starting college. We hike and camp every second we get. He has opened so many doors for me, and has made me so happy, its unbelievable.

He loves me for who I am, he doesn't care if I wear make up, doesn't care if I don't shave, doesn't care what music I listen to, or what my dorky hobbies are. He loves me for me, and never asks me to be anything I am not. I hope everyone can find a person like this. Because I believe the only way to enjoy life is to be who you are and no one else.