i'm very low. it was my grandads 87th birthday today.. first since he died.
i was raped on saturday and it was reported, the guy got out on bail on monday night after 22 hrs being questioned. til the 2nd april when they'll decide if they are going to persue it and charge him or not.
theyre going to take my phones off me. theyve...
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i was raped on saturday and it was reported, the guy got out on bail on monday night after 22 hrs being questioned. til the 2nd april when they'll decide if they are going to persue it and charge him or not.
theyre going to take my phones off me. theyve...
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liu:
really beauty!
really beauty!
heisszeit:
i hope u are alright
so today ive been job hunting, trying to get more paid work as a model is difficult and i came accross this
the aviary bar and gentlemans club are looking for dancers. no experience necessary as full training will be provided. you can hear upto a grand a week
i'm really tempted.
what do you lot think?
the aviary bar and gentlemans club are looking for dancers. no experience necessary as full training will be provided. you can hear upto a grand a week
i'm really tempted.
what do you lot think?
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ozzz:
Well, I think you should be careful. This is an industry that tends to swallow people into it, thus becoming a lifestyle. I've lost a relationship to stripping, and although my current one also dances, and thankfully it's working out beautifully, it still affects her, and if it wasn't for the money, she would have stopped a while ago. But being in a steady relationship helps. What worries me is the fragile state you find yourself in lately and the possibility you might end up looking to find comfort or a false sense of being in this job. Not immediately, because it'll probably take you a while to feel comfortable in your surroundings, but the job is like a drug, and the elements you'll be exposed to frankly will not be too positive. And considering how young you are, and how susceptible you have been feeling lately, I think it would be wise for you to get your head, feelings and heart straight, and explore other avenues before thinking of going into stripping.
I know that knocking on stripping may not get me popularity points in this place, but I do sense some hesitation in your decision, otherwise you wouldn't be looking to our opinion.
But whatever you decide to do, I hope it brings you the happiness you deserve, and if it doesn't, NEVER SETTLE!!!
You have a friend here, and I'm at your service...
Good luck!
I know that knocking on stripping may not get me popularity points in this place, but I do sense some hesitation in your decision, otherwise you wouldn't be looking to our opinion.
But whatever you decide to do, I hope it brings you the happiness you deserve, and if it doesn't, NEVER SETTLE!!!
You have a friend here, and I'm at your service...
Good luck!
danu:
just remember that the percentage of "gentleman" in gentlemans clubs is really small. if you check out the place and you feel like its safe and comfortable then do it. but if you have reservations then hold out for something better. 
life is fucking shit, and i hope all you bad people rot in hell for what you've reduced james to...
http://www.bebo.com/FlashBox.jsp?FlashViewType=Personal&FlashBoxId=3328676782&MemberId=6765697 - the video's about Danny... his brother, james, is ill in hospital he treid to kill himself because of what he'd done and what people and the sick fucks in this world are saying to him.
http://www.bebo.com/FlashBox.jsp?FlashViewType=Personal&FlashBoxId=3328676782&MemberId=6765697 - the video's about Danny... his brother, james, is ill in hospital he treid to kill himself because of what he'd done and what people and the sick fucks in this world are saying to him.
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rainbowcookie:
well its everything, but i have to finish up with a final piece... preferably something physical father than a painting/photograph. what with my course being based on 3D work its got to have a fair bit of that in it
i was thinking bondage and all that... we can go any which way we want, perhaps a bit of kinkyness will liven the studio up a bit lol
i was thinking bondage and all that... we can go any which way we want, perhaps a bit of kinkyness will liven the studio up a bit lol
asistid:
The video memorial is beautiful. What awful shockwaves for the family to be experiencing after such a tragedy - now another. There's nothing that anyone can say to make it better, I know. Some people are morally reprehensible and shouldn't be allowed sufficient oxygen to survive on this planet.
Rage. Cry. Love. Heal.
Rage. Cry. Love. Heal.
This week has been an emotional landslide, one I just want to forget. On Saturday I was really ill because I took many pills on Friday night, cheesy cheered me up by going shopping with me, even though I kept vanishing to be sick every so often. Sunday me and Mark split up, I told him to keep walking, and he did so and didn't...
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asistid:
You have so much wisdom and insight for such a young lady. Losing someone close is always difficult, but being able to remember and love - that is what will keep you through the rough times.
Chin up, lovely, anyone ANYONE silly enough to walk away from you should be seriously re-prioritized! 'Nuff said.
Kisses~
Chin up, lovely, anyone ANYONE silly enough to walk away from you should be seriously re-prioritized! 'Nuff said.
Kisses~
'Somewhere over the course of that winter I started thinking about killing myself, though not so much because I wanted to be dead, precisely, As because I yearned for resolution, for escape from the scratching distress of now. I thought killing myself was the only way I'd get that. Somehow, I wasn't really picturing the long term consequences of being dead. That I'd be dead...
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d_d:
Thanks for the help, i look very silly now since it was right there in front of me lol. Can you tell i'm not very net worthy.
d_d:
I just read your journal, i hope your feeling ok now.
Also don't be afraid to get help, the Nhs can suck at times but it is free, and there when you need it.
Hope your feeling loads better now
Also don't be afraid to get help, the Nhs can suck at times but it is free, and there when you need it.
Hope your feeling loads better now
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redtwo:
At the risk of repeating everyone else, what's up? You okay?
shazkhan:
Is it about mark or the photoshoot issues?
If it's the photoshoot, you only have to wait a month for the next time the guy is free. If its Mark, me thinks it may be a good thing, I dont think he was really serious.
Whatever it is you a strong girl and you'll be fine. I hope you feeling better soon
If it's the photoshoot, you only have to wait a month for the next time the guy is free. If its Mark, me thinks it may be a good thing, I dont think he was really serious.
Whatever it is you a strong girl and you'll be fine. I hope you feeling better soon
i feel really down today, feeling very lonely, crying at the drop of a hat, i try to stay positive and happy, i smileld all teh way through my fashion shoot today with Adam Cleaver, but it was all so faked. i'm exhausted, but waiting up for mitch so i can have a cuddle and a cry, i bet he won't even turn up, the...
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nathanialblood:
your cat has grown a lot and I will be back on the island on the 16th i think unless eveything goes horribly wrong
ollyp:
Our cats look very similar
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cheesy:
I think it's fabulous!
asistid:
Way cool and a complete waste of time - perfect!! We're never happier than when we're amusing ourselves with no regard for the clock - cheers! 
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cheesy:
I wasn't rubbing it in. I was merely stating a fact. It really wouldn't fit me.
I'll rub it in if you want me to.
I'll rub it in if you want me to.
cheesy:
Ha! You took the bait!
i miss you terribly