naima

I'm sensitive today.

I went into the laundry room at my complex, only to find that one of the two dryers I had occupied was now empty.

Immediately tearful, I realized that I was being ridiculous, but still felt the need to cry a bit over it, and to accept the loving embrace of my one and only.

I'm sensitive today.

Then giggled a bit, seeing the supposedly missing laundry pile on the floor of my room. When did I bring that in?

I'm sensitive today.
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I'm also wrong, the majority of the time. I love being wrong. It helps me grow. I learn from that.
Lately, I've been nothing but wrong, and that ties in with my last blog post actually.

I'm sensitive today.

Growth spurts hurt, a lot. I don't mean the physical ones, either.

"To constantly evolve into a higher thinking and feeling person" Is one of many motto's I have.

To have everything I feel and think questioned, no matter how sensitive I am feeling that particular day... Is like being pushed into walking over hot coals. No, I don't want to do it initially, but in the end I can look back and say, "Look what I did. Look what I accomplished".

Being pushed into my own mental growth spurt sucks ass. But it's worth it, in the end. I just have to be open to it, letting it change me as needed. Taking into account what is worthy of letting go, and what will stay the same, within me.

But then.. that makes me look at why I try to keep what I do want to keep. Do I really need that? Do I really need to hold fast to such thoughts, feelings? They are merely thoughts, after all, easily replaced, no?

I'm sensitive today.