nadya

I used to listen to you and I thought everything you said was genuine and true and heart felt and unmistakably loyal. But all that honesty was such a lie. Because all you do is make me feel like shit.

And it hurts because I care about you.

And I lost everything once.

And tried to let you back in.

But now I'm letting our so-called friendship go forever.

Because nothing i do matters to you.
You've never seen me for who i really am because you don't want to. You keep me weak, you keep me horrible.

You destroyed me once and it took me a long time to get who i was back, i'll never let that happen again.

And I don't hate you.

You are always welcomed here.

Because I love you.

But I don't really ever want to talk to you again.

I'm none of the things you see me as.
Grow up and let shit go.
You have no right to make me feel like shit for doing something cute and harmless.

And don't ever tell me how much you care...about anyone. Because you don't.

But thank you for reconfirming how much better i am without you. And how much Ian is such a better person than you will ever be.

I am so disappointed in everything you are.

And I'd rather not hear from you ever again.