nadya

i think when you dragged the razor blade across my lips
i think that's when i let loose
your infinite eyes break open my thighs
because you are beautiful and capable of handling every part of me
because you are incredible and sacrificial.

Sitting among the pillows tossed aside by lusty hands and perverted grabs you are something beautiful.
Reading the pages dog eared and breaking the spine of a poet's love life you are incredible

So we lie on the floor with our mouths open breathing in apartment air recycled from machines to drown out the heat
and i practice reviving you from a fake death just so i can press your lips with mine one last fucking time

:: Place your hands here my dear. spread your fingers over my little wooden chest and push it 'til it cracks::

So you relax your lungs. Teach them how to stop their automatica. And close your eyes.
Pain and stake i lean over your handsome boy face and part your kiss.
I breathe in. I breathe out.
And your ribcage expands with my oxygenated life

This is the first time I tell you how I feel.

Now you know what it's like to rely on someone else's life.