nadya

I think the question for today is, why am i in such a goddamn good mood?

i am dancing (in my head)
to a song that has irritated the shit out of me for the past 2 months.

I've stopped brushing my hair (mainly cuz i lost my favorite brush)... buuuuut i am showering on a daily basis again.

I went to the beach by myself today. I didnt even think of inviting anyone, it's nice to do things alone every once and a while. I swam out really far REALLY far. And then I started thinking about that movie open water... only I havent seen it so it was kinda hard. But I managed to freak myself out anyways.

I got a letter in the mail from Jay today. This Jay. I love his letters. They're so fundamentally heartwarming. And it's not because of his 4th grade diction and sentence structure, it's because he is probably the most genuine and tender people alive. I'm glad he's found a hand to hold steady for the rest of his life. It's crazy how Jay's happiness renews my faith in sooo many things.

i am so so proud of him for leaving and building a little life for himself away from alcoholic fathers and insecure mothers. i could never ask for better memories than the ones I have of us as little kids. He is so grown up now and he has impressed me more than anyone i know.

He is my guiding light and forever friend.