nadaiv

i got fired on the 12th of this month...it was such a relief because i fucking hated being at my job (i was an arbitrage clerk on the trading floor)...i felt like a slave that was set free...was there for 11 yrs...i went back today to pick up a severence check and just felt shitty for being there...i think i had a revelation: i don't want to go back...there's a remote possibility that i could get rehired due to certain business picking up...but i thought about it and i said "fuck 'em"...obviously there's some back story to all this but i won't get into it...what the fuck do i do now?...million $$ question, huh?...
let me just say that i dig animals--even though i am allergic to their hair/dander.....heh...dander....but i reeeaaalllllly don't like Magnus, my girl's cat. i take goood care of him, and he treats me like shit!
i just want to be loved...is that so wrong?