n2ocowboy

Well today I mustered up the energy to do some hard core cleaning to my house. And when this little cowboy gets cleaning, this old house gets clean as an fucking autoclave. So its nice to have my house all nice and shiny. I just made myself a nice dinner and now im chillin for the first time today. I even did my laundry this morn. My oh my such a productive day. Im glad I stayed home last night. I feel the need to just focus on myself these days. To just be alone and happy with that. If you cant be happy alone, then you cant be happy in opinion, So im happy these days. School is over and the sun is shining. I wake up smiling everyday and that pretty remarkable considering the past couple years of pain and adversity and all that rubbish. No more crying, no more lying, no more cheating and no more hating. This is my year, the year im gonna tear the roof of the mother fucker. I dont always know whats goin on, or where im going but I know whatever does happen I will be smiling. And you know what suicide land, I must be doing something right cuz I just got a card in the mail form my no 1, all time fav SG STINA!! I feel like the luckiest boy in the world, I must have a horseshoe up my ass or some good Karma. Not long ago I though the sun would never shine on these tired eyes, I thought the flowers would never bloom again, but I have seen the sun, and I can see the darling buds of spring coming to life. I can now breath deep, look up and smile again.

"Its a new dawn, its a new day, its a new life for me! And im feeling good."