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My head is spinning as my body drains.........

That sounds dramatic enough for the headline. I don't know what's up with me - over the last couple weeks I've had to struggle to get up the energy to do anything, yet at the same time I can't fall asleep until I'm absolutely falling down exhausted. Even simple tasks seem like a huge effort, I feel bad for my roommate due to my lack of dishwashing diligence. I hate this pit I'm in. And the most frusterating thing is that I WANT to do things. Mentally, I'm bouncing off the walls, which is probably why I have had such a hard time sleeping - I can't shut the brain off.

I don't know, this is bad. I'm sitting on the verge of the greatest musical revolution I've seen since moving to Boston. I practically have a full band now and a hundred ideas and concepts to go with it. And here I sit, blocked off from taking it and running with it simply because it's a struggle to even get up on my days off. Maybe I'm sick and just don't know it. I know it isn't depression - I'm actually annoyingly happy and upbeat (get stuck in a room with me for an hour and you'll understand). Maybe I should quit smoking. I know that's a major energy drain. And organize myself better. Perhaps it's time for one of my "forget the world for a week and focus my life" binges. I'm sure it couldn't hurt.

Fuck it.

Grow wings.

Day 0 is here.