To all my friends and followers thanks again for being so supportive, and caring. I know I haven't shared too much lately, let alone "good news" and to be honest I'm sure it is a downer for all my posts lately being about the loss of my mom.
I appreciate all of your comments and private messages, and I'm very sorry that I have been delinquent in my responses.
Please keep the hugs coming. I need them all.
There is no real way to convey all of my feelings.
The hardest part since I've returned to LA is now that it's a few weeks after the fact, I haven't gotten back into my routine. Not in the slightest. I'm not okay, with being okay that my mom is gone. The best way I can describe my life as of today is that I am not okay, and for now that's okay. Like anything else in life I have to take this one day at a time.
The worst of my grief now usually comes at night. When I'm alone with my thoughts and all the regrets, and what ifs, and alternative scenarios become the main focal point and I am plunged into such sadness that seems to consume the depths of my soul.
xoxo
