mythryl

I am constantly bothered by Christianity lately. Let me explain. I grew up in church and Christian schools. All of them left a very bad taste in my mouth. I dislike the word Christian because to me it means hate and bigotry. I'm not saying all Christians are that way I have met several who are not. However most of the example I have seen my whole life has been just that.. I have had "Christians" tell me they felt dirty talking to me because of my differing opinions. The schools I went to were terrible places. One of the schools I attended expelled me because my boyfriend at the time (who also attended the school) was sexual abussive. The first time I went to the school for help they just told me to pray about it. When ti escalated and the school found out the kicked me out but let him homeschool through the school for the remainder of his senior year. The church I was attending forced me out of the worship band and pretty much shamed me into feeling like it was all my fault and I was a disgusting person for allowing it. Thats a wonderful example of a Christ like attitude isn't it? I've followed alot of the Christian musicians I enjoyed as a kid and it's amazing whats been going on. 2 of them within the past couple years came out of the closet. Alot of "Christians" immediatly disregarded the amazing music they had made as trash and have been bashing them since. One such singer was Ray Boltz who wrote church standards for many years. This bothers me so much because I have spent alot of time reading the Bible and I don't know what Bible these "Christians" read but mine says to love and not cast judgement. The reason I am on this rant right now is because I am tired of hearing about God's vengeance on Japan and what I hear pretty much everywhere from "Christians". Again let me say not all Christians are like this it just seems to me the ones who are, are the majority based on those I have met. I'm pissed off because I think JC was a pretty cool guy. I mean he hung out with the scum of society and was gracious and loving and kind. He judged those who cast judgement on others. He told religious leaders to essentially go fuck themselves . Now i'm very eclectic in my faith I take abit from everywhere including Christianity. IT just frusterates me because if I tell a Christian family member or whomever my thoughts they look at me like I am the devil himself. I should end this now before I go on rambling forver.