mysweetisrael

By God, my wang swells every time I walk past Sash's profile. Damn, man. That's some good eatin' right there.

Oh wait...did I say that out loud?

Fuck all!, I say.

I have to confess that I get depressed when I'm not working. Does that mean I'm a workaholic? I don't think so. I do enjoy time off but I start to break down after a couple days. And I mean break down. I can feel it creeping over me right now. It's these thoughts of really not wanting to go to work and totally knowing that I need to both financially and emotionally. I love what I do. It's not my ultimate goal in life to be a server but I'm having a good time with it at the moment. I absorb a lot of good energy when I'm work. Yeah, I often leave work feeling energized. Scary, isn't it?

But invariably I get sick of it and have some downtime and next thing I know I don't want to go back even though I feel myself getting depressed. I guess that's part of the depression. I look forward to a day when I don't have to be constantly vigilant about keeping the Beast at bay. Fuck that shit.

Peace,
msi.