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Hudson, MA

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Tuesday Nov 23, 2004

Nov 23, 2004
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Well for this update I was gonna be totally positive...

Then Tuesday happened.

I have felt horrible all day. Not sick horrible, emotionally horrible. On the edge of tears all day. It took all my energy and will to not break down crying at least 5 times today. Twice is enough really.
Kendrick had been a little demon since Thurs. night, and is just getting worse as he days go on. My grandmother left for MA until Min January so I have NO break from him except his bedtime.
The only person I consider a real friend out here has a shitty work schedule the next month so we won't get to hang out mych (if at all) and then she leaves for Germany for a month.
My dad has bee in rare form the last week, and questions everything I do (or don't do)
At least someone at work figured it out and told everyone else to leave me alone. The guy I share the office with was out working on out network most of the day, which meant any music I wanted. The usual cheer me up playlist didn't even begin to crack it.
I just don't want to be here. I didn't want to come back after I went back to MA on vacation. I can't wait to leave. I need to leave. I feel so isolated out here. Almost everyone I care about is back east.

The one highlight of the last few days is knowing I'll have at least one person to talk to when I get home from work. Nope not Tuesday. Why? Who the hell knows why.

I should go to bed before I say something really stupid.
VIEW 21 of 21 COMMENTS
7deuce:
at least you have your dad?

hope you're well.
Nov 25, 2004
suggs:
sorry to hear things are bit naff at the mo....

but heres something that'll hopefuly cheer you up... i start my next letter this weekend, and have some groovy new prezzie ideas.. smile
Nov 26, 2004

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