This will be an episode of Mylf self-pity... read on at your own risk.

Let me start with Friday. I spent the afternoon with my daughter. She cried the last 1-1 1/2 hrs we were together. I took my niece out for her b-day since I'm not gonna be there for it. I didn't get back to Pip's to start packing til 10. Couldn't pack cause the boy wouldn't go to sleep. Went to pick up Pip and found out he was gonna be at work til midnight Got back to his place past midnight and started packing. I was up until 4am Sat am packing. I didn't sleep well knowing what was coming. We didn't get up til between 8 and 8:30. That is about when I should have been leaving for the airport. Since we left late everything was rushed. I almost missed my flight. I got rushed thru the check in line, and I don't even think I got to thank Pip for everything he did for me the last 3 weeks. I turned back to say a quick thanks and he was gone. I got rushed thru security, and RAN to the terminal.

My son can always tell when I'm upset. Usually that puts him on his best behavior. not this time. he was feeling every bit the upset mood that I was in. I spent most of the flight from Boston to Dallas writing. I think the total came to 4 pages of very small writing. He kept asking for people we won't see for probably another year.

Dallas to LA wasn't too bad. there were alot of other kids on that plane so even if he was that bad, there were other kids to drive everyone nuts too. I started (and finished) a favorite book of mine on the flights from Dallas to LA and LA to Maui. I got to sleep a bit on the flight from LA to Maui, and the boy was curled up with me. They lost one of my bags. At least it didn't have any clothes in it. I almost lost my cell phone on the plane. A really nice flight attendant found it and he got it to baggage claim for me.

So I'm back on Maui.

And I don't want to have anything to do with it.

I need to start planning how and when I will be moving back east. I can't live here anymore. Don't get me wrong, I do like it here, I just LOVE it there better.

And my daughter is there, and all my friends (except one) are there.

I probably won't be around SG for the next couple days. I don't really think I should be around anyone in this mood. I don't want to bring anyones mood down with me, but I think that may have already started.

Later all.