mykel

I sincerely apologise to anyone who might have witnessed my rant yesterday. Fortunately, it wasn't very many of you. What the hell? Where is everyone?
Anyway, all better now. I'm drinking this tea again that helps me not feel so nuts. (kava, for anyone who's interested) I was saving the last of what I had for emergencies, and, well, that was it. I'll be getting more this week.
Anyway, it turns out that I'm not completely insane. There's been a change in my relationship with Tyler. I'm really freaked out and I have no idea how to handle this. I'm not sure how much of it I should divulge. I don't know if he'd like me discussing this kind of thing with internet strangers. I guess I'll just say he's come to certain conclusions which, to me, seem out-of-the-blue, but I guess have always been present to him. Why now, I have no idea.
It kind of makes some of my problems easier to deal with, but it makes everything so much more complicated. I'm really terrified because change is scary.
I've reached my own conclusions about myself, so it's weird that we both had this happen at the same time. I don't know what will come of all this, and I really wish I had someone to help me with it.