I swear I was feeling fine when I woke up. Work wasn't too bad either. It's friday, yay?
Now I just want to curl up in my bed and cry.
So, my b/f and I have been having problems for quite some time now. I've been concidering breaking it off, but I'm affraid to lose my best friend. He even said that if I break up with him that he can't see us being friends. What kind of friend is that? I just feel trapped. I wonder if my reasons for not wanting to be with him are justifiable. What are my reasons? Well, he's 5 years my junior, still lives with his parents when he's not at school, they spoil him ( by giving him an allowance STILL and a car to drive and pay for his gas), he's never lived on his own or had to pay any bills, this is the first real relationship that he's been in ( which makes me wonder if he's just so comfortable with me and leans on me so much that he thinks that I'm THE ONE). We fight now, over stupid stuff!! He gets angry at me b/c I can't make any decisions right away as to what I want to do with my life, accused me of being an alcoholic, thinks I need therapy for depression, and then sends me emails saying that he's sorry and that if I need to talk to him he's there and that he understands and that he loves me, but when I try to say whats on my mind he gets defensive and the fight starts all over. I just don't know what I want to do.
I'm sorry. I just needed to vent.
I'm going to go take a shower now, maybe that will make me feel better.
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feckweed:
i was on too late to chat at you. my apologies. I didn't realize the extent of all of that. I can be your ears over some vietnamese food.
davefuture:
how are you doing? when crummy stuff like this happens to me i listen to the ramones. that's the only advice i can give. i've been in the same boat, different circumstances but the same "should we break up limbo" feeling and it sucks. i hope it pans out. 