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Today I shall tell you about a childish fascination I have with carnivals...

When I was a child I wanted to join a travelling circus. I wanted to be some kind of performer. A contortionist twisting into unimaginable postions? Maybe I'll do the flying trapeze flipping and flopping through the air with pieces of flowing fabric to make me look like an angel? Perhaps the tight rope walker with her sequin leotard and shimmering makeup? Maybe even a freak somehow, not naturally, but modified? It just holds this mystery and magic to me. Almost as a taboo way of life. This I find utterly fascinating. A giant family of travelling freaks, but freaks only to the "norm" of society. Who determins what is normal and what is not? I don't really like this society. I see everything as art. Everyone else should too, it certainly makes the world a more beautiful place.

Back on subject!!

I would like to take you back...
How far back?
Way back...
Ok wait you went too far back...
Ok...
I want to take us back to the Dead Can Dance video "The Carnival Is Over." For one thing, the song is beautiful. Secondly, the video is spectacular. With these two elements combined it touches your heart, provoking thoughts and emotions of childish delight. The mystery and the wonder of the world all around you. Or maybe it's just me? I guess you'll just have to watch it and see if it makes you feel the same way

I also recommend you see a wonderful movie called "Wings of Desire." It makes me smile and want to cry. This one also touches me deeply. It has Nick Cave starring as himself, playing at some dive bar, but he is just an added attraction not the main one. It has angels, carni's and lots of feelings. I've never seen the sequel "Faraway, So Close." Have you?

I have a friend that is terrified of clowns. Actually a phobia. How is this possible? Perhaps she was scarred as a child from watching "Killer Clowns From Outer Space" (ha! that movie really sucks ass!) or maybe that one scene in "Poltergeist" with the little kid and the toy clown trying to pull him under the bed (ok so that was a scary clown, but only because it was a freaky ass possessed clown from hell!!). No! I've got it! It had to have been "IT." Yeah, Tim Curry sure does scare the shit out of you... not. I can only see him as "The sweet transvestite from Transexual, Transylvaniaaaa." Lol.. Then again this friend I'm talking about also has an extreme fear of animals including squirrels, flies, frogs, and cats.

Yep..

Saying of the day:
I see London! I see France!
I see *insert your name here*'s underpants!!

Goodnight *bows*
xoxo
Blue