mxpxfish

you know that feeling you get
when you first fall in love
the one deep inside
that makes any situation okay
the one that everybody strives to obtain
in some ways i think ill never have
that feeling ever again
but ive foung a feeling that
is so much warmer
so much more comforting
how i feel completely at peace
nothing can go wrong ever
this feelng is so deep
it is so pure and true
and i have to pull myself away
cause it doesent feel real
that something so simple
could make me feel like
there is so much in me
it makes me want to make myself better
i feel like im not good enough to experiance this
this sound goes so deep into my soul
touching me when i hear that voice
so real, true, pure, intense, beautiful
i feel it so deeply


i feel like i dont need to worry about it
like its telling me ill be okay
there is so much going on in my head
so much i try to figure out
im trying to mess up my world
stir it up so i dont have to think
i feel the need to fight for something
but i have no cause
i feel so much passion when i hear it
but i cant feel anything when its over
i dont know how to figure it out
or why i even want to
i cant just be happy the way things are


i feel like im fighting with myself
to be something im not
but im not sure what i am
or what it is im trying to be
but everytime its on i feel like
its okay where i sit right now
i never want the songs to end
i just want to live feeling this constantly
a constant reminder of how i am
to become this way
i dont trust any other way
im watching the sun go down
i feel it devour me
as its cooling down
then i become numb again
im incapeable of feeling anymore
feeling anything except ...........


i watch my shadow
move across the ground
all i can feel is on my skin
soon ill have to leave
is this the one peace ill get
i try to feel
and when you want something so bad
it is so much harder to get
is it just that i want some attention and effection
could someone survive like that
be truely alone like i strive to be
but why do i want to be alone so bad
cause if i wasnt alone
it would be inevitable that thats how id end up
so why just not stay alone
and save myself the trouble