muteent

"Turn up the radio, cuz it's my favorite song."

I need to do something new, some change, and hopefully something happier. I feel distant and lonely, but I have a plethora of distractions(some healthy, some...not so much) which relieve anxiety and possibly improve me as a person. I got a mandolin for my graduation present. It's a fender acoustic-electric, black, and it looks like a tiny strat. I love it, but it needs a name, something irish (colleen or something). I want to learn french, and read camus and les miserables untranslated. I'm find that I'm often very bored but never have enough time to do all the things I want/should do. I fully intend to stop pining over people who don't feel the same way about me as I do about them, and also, to start writing again. I have ideas that are tearing my insides to pieces trying to get out. Tomorrow I;m going to stop doing nothing and do more than I can handle. I have no direction, and this feels like such a constraint, but in fact, it's a freedom few people share.



John