mutal8

well, i finally organized most of my cd collection and put them all in alphabetical order. it's actually kind of exciting to know that the stack of cds on my desk are in some order. it may seem like a small collection but i have so much more on my computer and on burned cds. my initial count was 230, exactly. but, i forget to include the album of mp3s on the many cds i have lying around so i probably have over 300 of albums.

i should have more but there's never enough.



i am consumer whore.

a lot has happened and i have no money anymore because a family crisis has left me broke. and, there's a lot more shit i have to worry about. i just want to burn my head off into non-existance so i won't have to worry anything anymore. but, my problems are trivial and i need to grow and be a colder person to survive in a cold world. emo alert! seriously, i need to relax and not worry about everything.



recently, i saw polysics at the cafe du nord. it was a great show and i danced like i never danced before because i needed to. the lead singer jumped on my shoulders and i walked two feet into the crowd then i dropped him onto the stage. kayo, the keyboardist is amazing and i never seen her move so much before because she's in robot mode. now, she was crazy robot who rocked.

the next i saw them at amoeba records and got them to sign my notebook and draw little portraits of themselves. very japanese.

as much as i shouldn't go to the wednesday night show in sf for lo fi niesans, i 'm going because i have to keep myself from getting into self loathing mode. the void needs to go away.


oh, that fucking void!