musim

I feel like a bad pesron. I suppose I am in a way. I had a guitar student scheduled to start on friday that I completely forgot about. I called him on friday and left a message. I'm going to call him again tomorrow and offer him learning materials to make up for my mistake. I don't expect him to take lessons from me but I really would like to make it up to him as a person. I really feel like a shitty guitar teacher.

I say a lot of bad things to people. I have no tact. Its a much of a bad thing as it is a good thing. People want to know what they're doing is right and I'm no expection. But we're all wrong and we're all right. All in all I'm no good example for anyone to follow. I believe what I believe. And that changes anytime I find something that fits better. I suppose that is a good thing. I look for a path of balance. At least I used to. Now I'm a bit indifferent to balance. I just don't care about a lot of things. The only things I really care about are my friends and family and being able to be who I am. But I'll sacrifice who I am to help one of those people out if I can. I won't change if they want me to but I will if I know I can truly help them. I do not say those words lightly.

Helping someone isn't cut and dry. Helping someone push their car is cut and dry and good. Helping someone get a job maybe not. That person might have had dozens of jobs and giving them something like that would simply contribute to them taking that aspect of life for granted. Its not a decision to be made lightly. We're all complicated yet simple creatures. There doesn't seem to be any single reason for anything.

I'm not really going anywhere with this. I'm just trying to let some of this out.

Sunday nights are my favorite nights because they're my game nights. I get to spend the night having fun with good friends.

This next week is going to be all work. Its dead week. And I have much to study.