I realise now that as much as i want to move up at my job, perhaps the promotions are'nt for me. That dream job of mine is hanging just above me and i may be able to get it soon. I just have to hang in there a little bit longer. Thank you to all for the messages or comments, i hate when people accept or request friendship and dont ever talk to you. lots of love to those who message, you know who you are. The weather is so beautiful out, time to get the skateboards out. Well, school is calling, so time to get my ass going. Cant work bullshit jobs forever. Love you all. 
good luck