muse_malade

This is the first update in a while and it's going to be really short.
My boyfriend is leaving in about 2 weeks to hike the AT and I won't see him for about 5 months. It looks like November.
All the men in my life (friends, co-workers, etc) have been super sensitive lately. You know who you are. All I can say is that some things can't be helped.
On Friday, I am going to Mogwai with my b/f and my best friend. I'm looking forward to it.
I'm trying to deal with several things that are shitty in my life right now in a new way... hence, not drinking.
The most I've drank was on my birthday (couple glasses of really good wine) and a nice bottle of white wine this weekend. I've been staying as far as I possibly can away from the vodak. I refuse to end up like my family. I am working my way to complete soberity! YEAH!
I quit smoking (2 months now, last time 11 months).
I'm looking at moving to the NW, possibly Portland, after the first of the year. I thought in August, but money will not allow it.
I'm just going through this melancholy... period or something. I know it has a lot to do with him leaving... and knowing that I am shitty at relationships. I never trust people and then BAM!!! I'm all fucked up and become too close. This time, it just happened really fast. I got blindsided and didn't see it coming until it was too late.
I can honestly say that this ones going to hurt......