Everything has just been blah lately. Just everything has gone to shit. I am trying to keep positive about it. I found out I need to move in August. No big deal because I have 7 months to save the money and so on, it's just I am really confortable here. Work sucks. Pissy little kids that don't realize life does not HAVE TO BE ABOUT DRAMA.
My stomach is fucked. It's just stress. I am trying to work out as much as I can but I can't do it all the time. It's just a lot of change all at once. I don't like change unless I am the one making the changes.
I decided I like my hair shorter than it is now so I'm cutting it. Who has time to fuck with it every day? My hair is so thick that it's a struggle anyways......
I don't know. I'm just lonely and moody. I just miss someone who I don't kow. Someone I've never met. I have no idea if I'll ever meet this person or if they exsist. I know. I'm being a child and stupid but this guy I had a brief encounter with just made things worse.
I feel better about things and worse. I just need to move and get that under control. It's the car. The job. The fact that all this happened and I'm not in school right now. It's cold outside. It's cold in here. I'm just trying to make it by. I want my ears bigger. I want a tattoo. I want to be around art. I want to be a part of something. There's nothing in this town. It's a bigger town, near Chicago. It's just empty and dead. I really hate this part of the year is all. I start to get really depressed and feeling shitty around this time. And it stays like this until the beginning of March. Every since I was younger, I've had this problem. I just can't shake it.
Good news... Hmmm... the good news is at least I'm alive.
My stomach is fucked. It's just stress. I am trying to work out as much as I can but I can't do it all the time. It's just a lot of change all at once. I don't like change unless I am the one making the changes.
I decided I like my hair shorter than it is now so I'm cutting it. Who has time to fuck with it every day? My hair is so thick that it's a struggle anyways......
I don't know. I'm just lonely and moody. I just miss someone who I don't kow. Someone I've never met. I have no idea if I'll ever meet this person or if they exsist. I know. I'm being a child and stupid but this guy I had a brief encounter with just made things worse.
I feel better about things and worse. I just need to move and get that under control. It's the car. The job. The fact that all this happened and I'm not in school right now. It's cold outside. It's cold in here. I'm just trying to make it by. I want my ears bigger. I want a tattoo. I want to be around art. I want to be a part of something. There's nothing in this town. It's a bigger town, near Chicago. It's just empty and dead. I really hate this part of the year is all. I start to get really depressed and feeling shitty around this time. And it stays like this until the beginning of March. Every since I was younger, I've had this problem. I just can't shake it.
Good news... Hmmm... the good news is at least I'm alive.
Hope you feel better soon