why am i such a freaking loner?
i started my new job training yesterday and it lasts for two weeks. the class is all female which is kind of hard for me. i've never been the girly type and whenever i try to join in on girly converstaions i just look retarded......so then i digress and kind of keep to myself. Then i think i come off as unfriendly and stuck up and i really hate that because i'm not at all. I'm trying so hard to make conversation with these girls but it just doesn't click. Why is it that i can talk so much easier with guys? Why is there no pressure to look a certain way and i feel like i can just be myself around those with that y chromosome?
i'm naturally a loner as it is, but i think females are less forgiving when you don't open up as much as everyone else.
but really i don't need to be stressing so much over the people in this class because i'll only see these people for 2 weeks before we get to go to our individual branches.
and then when i get to my branch i'll really start worrying because i'm certain everyone will be female......then i'll really have to turn on the PR.....but that just wears me out so much.
i'm just so concerned with this because this is my fresh start......my one chance to start over with a clean slate....no enemies.........................but also no friends
god i need to get out to the club
i started my new job training yesterday and it lasts for two weeks. the class is all female which is kind of hard for me. i've never been the girly type and whenever i try to join in on girly converstaions i just look retarded......so then i digress and kind of keep to myself. Then i think i come off as unfriendly and stuck up and i really hate that because i'm not at all. I'm trying so hard to make conversation with these girls but it just doesn't click. Why is it that i can talk so much easier with guys? Why is there no pressure to look a certain way and i feel like i can just be myself around those with that y chromosome?
i'm naturally a loner as it is, but i think females are less forgiving when you don't open up as much as everyone else.
but really i don't need to be stressing so much over the people in this class because i'll only see these people for 2 weeks before we get to go to our individual branches.
and then when i get to my branch i'll really start worrying because i'm certain everyone will be female......then i'll really have to turn on the PR.....but that just wears me out so much.
i'm just so concerned with this because this is my fresh start......my one chance to start over with a clean slate....no enemies.........................but also no friends
god i need to get out to the club
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But no you are not a looser just different than those people. Once you get to the permanent place you'll find people you like, thats the hardest part.