Oh dear! 
The last 2 and a half weeks were amazing like whoa!
I'm somewhat miserable here back home in New York.
I'll get over it, maybe.
I left my heart in BC with
him. 
And in a sense I left part of my soul in Seattle with my Nancy. The plan is to move to Seattle as soon as possible. This unfortunately might take a few years depending on certain varriables. I am hoping I qualify for NYS disability because if I do I can go back to college and finally get my degree. If I can go back it will make the last 2 years of taking care of my brother easier on me since I will have something to do. If I can't get disability then I want my Doctors and Lawyers to clear me for work and I want someone to give me a job that doesn't hurt me to do. Is that really asking too much? I don't think so. OR... maybe one of my parents could get it together enough to take back their son so he isn't being raised by his sister, who I feel like is failing miserably as his guardian. 
I'm stressed again. At least I got a good break from it. I'm trying not to complain, really trying. Possibly failing, but then if you don't like it then don't read it.
I've been paying bills and getting things together for my lawyer and for my disability case and other such undesirable things today. I have been trying to get my car inspected so I can drive it again. I have paperwork to go thru and stuff to get rid of, but I am not sure if I will get as much done today as I would like.
I have to get a shower so I can help my car insurance agent work on this project hes got. Ugh, not in the mood for that, but I dont really have a choice in the matter.
Listening to Everclear I havent heard them in a while. There was a spider nest in the CD case.
"Never been here, never coming back
Never want to think about the things
That happened today
Want to lay down on the warm ground
I think Im going to need a little time to myself
Dont fall down now
You will never get up
Dont fall down now"
While I can't relate so much to the rest of the song, that part pretty much sums me up right now.
The last 2 and a half weeks were amazing like whoa!
I'm somewhat miserable here back home in New York.
I'll get over it, maybe.
I left my heart in BC with
him.
And in a sense I left part of my soul in Seattle with my Nancy.
The plan is to move to Seattle as soon as possible. This unfortunately might take a few years depending on certain varriables. I am hoping I qualify for NYS disability because if I do I can go back to college and finally get my degree. If I can go back it will make the last 2 years of taking care of my brother easier on me since I will have something to do. If I can't get disability then I want my Doctors and Lawyers to clear me for work and I want someone to give me a job that doesn't hurt me to do. Is that really asking too much? I don't think so. OR... maybe one of my parents could get it together enough to take back their son so he isn't being raised by his sister, who I feel like is failing miserably as his guardian.
I'm stressed again. At least I got a good break from it. I'm trying not to complain, really trying. Possibly failing, but then if you don't like it then don't read it.
I've been paying bills and getting things together for my lawyer and for my disability case and other such undesirable things today. I have been trying to get my car inspected so I can drive it again. I have paperwork to go thru and stuff to get rid of, but I am not sure if I will get as much done today as I would like.
I have to get a shower so I can help my car insurance agent work on this project hes got. Ugh, not in the mood for that, but I dont really have a choice in the matter.
Listening to Everclear I havent heard them in a while. There was a spider nest in the CD case.
"Never been here, never coming back
Never want to think about the things
That happened today
Want to lay down on the warm ground
I think Im going to need a little time to myself
Dont fall down now
You will never get up
Dont fall down now"
While I can't relate so much to the rest of the song, that part pretty much sums me up right now.
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harshrocker:
I hope you can escape the mess that is Erie County as soon as possible. I think you can do it. Stay positive.
malina:
I was just thinking about you... 