mun573r

I do feel alone.. Its been almost been what? two weeks now? Im still living off my friends floor, alone in columbus, no friends but work acquaintances and my best friend from middle school that was kind enough to loan me his couch. The person that I spent the last two years with still lingers in my mind every day. It sucks, she was my first love, and I guess at this point my only. I never really got to vent about this, I do deem it time. I miss my cat that we bought together, Ill never see him again. So sad that the person you spent two years with, it took it 5 months living with them to realize that they cant support you emotionally the way you need to be. I gave it my all and took care of her, but nothing was reciprocated. Now im up here with a dream job that will pay for the rest of my school I need, yet im 2 hours from my small close nit family. Im torn, looking for sublets are fucking retarded. No one calls you back, or emails you. I just need to find somewhere to stay until September of 09. I need and desperately want to get my own place, but several people think its a bad idea because of my bipolar/ocd issues (which have never been a problem until i was a dumb ass and stopped taking my meds). Fuck it. I do feel very much alone. But hell, whatever works out happens. Ive never really not gave a fuck about what happens, no plans, nothing. It will work out.. I hope.