mueca

alright - here's that midlife crisis we've all heard about... and it's happening to me!!!
on my upcoming birthday, end of this month, i will be one year older, officially divorced and packing my entire life & business into a pod container for eternal storage (probably not enternal, but you get the dramatic sense im building here..) im trying to keep the awareness that i don't "not have a home" but instead have "the oppertunity, nay, the challenge to find homes everywhere i go"!!!! im going to be traveling alot more for work, i hope, as i will no longer have a viable means of eating at that point. i'll be away from my safety after 14 years, and this thought sets me up for a near disasterous melt down, only controlled thru soft whimpering and rapid breathing. it sounds so over the top, i never thought i'd feel this over something that i have wanted for so long.(3 years) but the day gets closer, and the breathing becomes more rapid. it will pass, but until then, i'll be breathing into a paper bag in the corner!
thanks for the ear to bend, ya'll.