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Tuesday Apr 05, 2011

Apr 5, 2011
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Another day, another dollar
Well, at least the day part is accurate.

Mights wanna skip to 1:36 mark as the video is old and they talk about George Bush and the war in Iraq starting.



Lyrics

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I never thought this could be me
I guess you never do, 'til it's happening to you
like all the fun turns into shame
and all the "could have beens" rearrange
so little time so many crimes, guilt like a chain chokes my will away
redemption never seemed so cruel
and all my gods never seemed so weak

Wake up engage now derailed and enraged
it used to be so easy
get up I'm game now I'm sick and I'm tame counting cost with lost
where is the hope they gave
and don't think that I can't hear you laugh
I used to be a lot like you but now I'm only me
I used to be a lot like you but now I'm only me I'm only me

Drink to pills to shots turns into shock
a habit and a pawn
for every hand goes round the pain gets so damn loud
the hammer hits and I'm down
trust no one
hey why should I, they gave me the poison dressed like life
cheated smacked up and diseased cry to sleep and fight to eat
used to be a pro at this
now I've broken my own wrist
rotten teeth and life unsung you'll forget me when I'm gone

Wake up engage now derailed and enraged
it used to be so easy
get up I'm game now I'm sick and I'm tamed counting cost with lost
I used to be a lot like you but now I'm only me
I used to be a lot like you but now I'm only me I'm only me




Well after yesterdays diatribe I thought long and hard about what it is that is really bugging me and how I can fix it. How can I really make the emptiness dissipate? How is it that I can truly make myself feel whole again? I realized I really need to stop worrying about the people that clearly aren't worrying about me. I need to just be me. If people don't want to accept me for that they can really just

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fuck off

as far as I'm concerned, they'll learn what they've lost. I know who in my life I can count on and those are the friends I need to focus on, they are the ones I would lay my life on the line for. In my time of darkness I was constantly thinking about who turned off the lights, not the ones that were lighting a torch for me. This epiphany has certainly lifted a great burden off me. I will sleep like a baby tonight. I appreciate the pain I did feel though, sometimes it is needed in order for you to truly find out who you are.

And now for something a little happier.
I may be doing my first stand up comedy show in a couple of weeks. (I know hard to believe with all the dark shit I've been thinking and writing I've still been writing jokes, I assure you they are in good nature though)

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