Dear past tense me..

You need to learn that being yourself.. being genuine is one of the most important things to being happy … You dont need to stress yourself about the small things.
Being accepting of others, understanding that everyone has different beliefs…. and that is ok… Some people may not accept your beliefs but, try not to dwell on it too long..

Just because you were never loved by your real family does not make you less of a person. You have made the effort to reach out many times and that is all you can do… There are alot of people out there that do love you.. and support you.. You were raised by amazing people .. they taught you lessons that you will reflect on daily as you get older.. God Bless them!

I know you married young and things didnt’ work out but that doesnt make you a bad person or a bad wife.. You are an incredibly independent, intelligent girl.. you will find “the one” it may just take some time.. Take the time to enjoy life.. explore, learn and love.. You are allowed to be bitter for a short while.. you may think marriage is not for you anymore.. you need to find a like minded person.. You need to find someone who LOVES you for you .. There is no deadline on love…

There will be many trials that come your way… loss… health … financial . you may think that it will destroy you but, they are just tests … you are extremely resourceful and you will shine and overcome them.. ..

You do not need to fit the mold of society.. you had a great career in your mid 20’s but you left that to explore and take chances.. you met some great people and learned so much about life… Not everyone needs a career .. some need passion… I can say that you are full of passion..

You will get many tattoos.. I know.. it is shocking but.. true.. you will express your artistic side both in drawing and photography.. dont let that go.. you love it..

You will try and help some troubled souls because like present tense you.. you feel everyone deserves a second chance… but, becareful.. you will get burned.. you will have some horrible experiences and you will see some terrifying things that no counsellor can help you rid from your mind… dont let it weigh you down.. move forward with pride… you will learn how to “profile” to see how really wants to make change..

You will take an unexpected adventure across Canada and see alot of great places and people.. you will reconnect with old friends .. this will be a major turning point for you and your happiness. Things may seem sad and dark .. you will fight as you always do.. you will make the happy come back.. you will unearth some great times .. Create some great new memories with old friends and new..

You will make it.. Head Up.. Chin Up.. You got this Chick!

P.s You will get a couple of white hairs along the way but you still Look 20 in your Mid 30’