mrsted_stryker

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Look. I have a disease in my foot. It causes deformity. The deformity causes pain and lack of being able to walk. I just healed for my SEVENTH surgery from this... and I am the one that went thru it. I am the one that doesnt sleep from pain. I am the one that throws up from pain. I am the one that has to look at my loved ones faces when I hurt.. knowing that they are fighting back tears because the pain is unbearable. This is MY life. And although my doc says that we should be good now, he completely agrees with my decision. If I have another issue, we are cutting it off. This is not a joke. This is my life. Like I said, I really do appreciate the concern.. but how about just supporting MY decision? Right or wrong its still MINE to make. Or better yet, how about you speak to *bob* or butrcup79? THEY watch me go thru this everyday. I am to the point that I dont want to see either one of them because this is hurting them too. How about you all come out and take care of me.. and see me cry. How about YOU go thru this?
I know I sound mad, or angry, but I am not. I just want to be perfectly clear that this is MY decision when/if the time comes. And it is something that I will NOT be discussing on here again.
AGAIN, please dont think I am mad.. this is not mad or rude. This is firm. And MY decision.
Thanks!

Back to story...

So we did an X Ray.
and I really dont like the x ray tech. She is 100 years older than DIRT and thinks she knows everything.
HER: "well, you dont NEED that wheelchair that close to the table. You can take one step."
ME: " Ummm how bout a big fat NO and I have been doing this long enough I know whats best for me."
HER: "well I have been doing THIS for about a billion years and I think that I know more than you do." (as she is manhandling my foot)
I laughed and said. " OH honey, you poor thing. Everyone KNOWS that I know everything about my foot. Just ask my doctor, he will tell you. He will also tell you to treat me with some damn respect while you are manhandling my foot. Now should I do this x ray or shall you? Its not rocket science and I am quite capable thank you very much."
HER: "ummmm......

GOOD TIMES!
Fishii wants that rebel camera.. and pretty underwear...

SO I read the x ray as well.. and it is not fractured. The craptastic tech took the x rays outta my hand and she almost got punched. I dont give a fuck, I will slap me an old bitch!
Dr. S comes in and agrees with me.
I like how I am the doctor, and he just confirms. lmao.
Its bruised. My bones are so weak and rubbery that it just bent, but didnt break. So I have a fancy thingy on my foot that send electric pulses and reduces swelling and pain.
Off it for a week.
And than its back to dancing and making out with butrcup79!!

So I have been thinking.. (uh oh) and I am really quite disappointed in everyone. I expected you all to make fun of me about the lactose intolerant thing. I dont know why but I am really stuck on this. I WANT HUMOR!
and a Cannon Rebel with some pretty underwear...
And the only one that has been consistently funny is Gwyneth!! That girl is a RIOT!

Bottom line, I wanna laugh. I wanna hold mah belly and giggle until I pee or cry.
Why you ask? Because despite the fact that my ankle is not broken.. it hurts like a fucking son of a bitch. Think about it, SEVEN surgeries and I have been doing this since June of 2004? I get a stubbed toe and the damn thing feels like it just fell off. I am tired. I am exhausted. I am going to beg my doctor to let me get a job tomorrow... but I need the universe to show me something fantastic. I want the universe to PROVE to me that big things happen.. and I want it to start with me laughing.
and a Canon Rebel and some pretty underwear...

Make me laugh.
Pweeze???

OK before i go I am gonna leave you with a black and white I took the other day. I likes it... and seeing as how my camera really IS craptastic, I am sorta proud!


OK I just finished eating my lunch so I am gonna have some Wii fun...its been about a week since I played.. I need some zombie time!
and a Canon Rebel and some pretty underwear...

Thanks for visiting... please come again!


PS my subliminal messages are NOT intended for begging for gifts. The purpose is for the UNIVERSE to get its ass in gear and give them to me. I am fucking awesome... I deserve them!