Wednesday Jan 07, 2009

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I am taking pictures today... tomorrow will be a picture blog. biggrin

But for today I have a mini rant. Sorry.

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I am on disability. I get a craptastic check from the government because I am sick. Its not much, and bottom line I think the government wants ppl that are sick to die, but thats another rant for another day. TODAY my complaint is that I have Medicare and Medicaid and can you believe I dont qualify for ANY transportation?!? I have spent 2 1/2 hours on the phone calling every single transportation company in this shit hole town and none of them can come get me for a doctors appointment. The only one I found, says I have to fill out an application, have my doctor sign it, get an appointment (about 2 weeks) and than it takes a month or so to approve me AFTER my appointment. And because my kidneys are working great and I am not on dialysis I cant get rides while I wait. wtf?
So I have to have ONE MORE health issue to get help? Ya how about a big fuck you.
I have My infectious disease doc once a week, my foot doc once a week, my home health care isn't forever so I will have to go to the PICC team once a week for blood work and dressing change and now therapy. FOUR appointments and I cant drive. My *bob* works until 2:30 and I work starting Sunday at 4 so I am screwed. The bus system is not like it is in other towns and how the hell am I gonna get to a bus stop on my crutches? They rub my PICC line when I walk far on them. That = not good. Taxi cab? Ummm a big fat no. It costs $20 ONE WAY to get from my house to the downtown area where all my doctors are... I dont have $40 a day to drop on that.
So ya, having health issues has fucked me beyond belief. Not in a good way either. If it was a GOOD way, I would be ecstatic... as the good ole libido is starting to come back.. strong. whatever
I guess I am just going to drive. I am gonna get my ass in the car, and use my left foot and hope I dont kill myself driving, or get a ticket. I just dont honestly see a way to get around it.
And no I am not going to go to a church for help. No offense to all of you that are religious, I am just not. Just because I believe I am an Omnist doesn't mean I am going to lie and say I believe all of something when I dont. I am just not a liar. sorry.
I am also gonna talk to my temporary foot doctor on Friday and INFORM her how its gonna be. Fuck this. I wont walk on my foot, I promise, but I am going to fucking drive. Period.
HA we are back to the whole money thing aren't we? If I had the money I could get a car and driver to come pick me up, or even pay for a taxi... fuck money.
I iz angry fishii right now... very very angry.


*End rant*

sorry.. I needed to get that out.
SO, what else is happening?
I think when I was in the hospital I ordered crap and I dont remember, because a DVD came today and I dont remember ordering it. It wasn't a directors selection either. I WAS on a lot of drugs but seriously? I dont see me ordering the movie Wanted. Maybe renting it, but not buying it.
sigh I dislike these drugs, I dont remember shit! tongue
I guess I have a movie to stare at today.. whatever

Lets see.. how about we get away from all that crap and get to the whats making me smile today? Ya I think that would be great! I have more than 3 today... after my 2 hours of crap, I think more than 3 is in order. smile

1. I got to sleep in.
2. I was a little late taking my antibiotics out of the fridge (its ok.. its allowed) and so I wrapped the bag in the flannel that AL left me and put it on the couch and my kitty Lucia promptly laid on it and looked at me like "there, does that help?". *giggle*
3. Got a lunch time phone call from AL... that made me swoon like a girl. Wait, I AM a girl! surreal
4. My mailman brought me my mail cuz I was on the patio. He is so nice. He asked if I was doing better. No idea how he knew my foot was infected... I probably told him and dont remember. tongue
5. The fact that I dont remember shit is making me laugh. Ya it kinda sucks but its funny at the same time.
LAST ONE I PROMISE
6. This song... for whatever reason it is making me happy today! smile Actually I think I know why... but thats too personal.. and thats saying something cuz I am pretty open and honest on here! whatever

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Lyrics:
Something in the way she moves
Attracts me like no other lover,
Something in the way she woos me.
I don't want to leave her now,
You know I believe and how.
Somewhere in her smile she knows
That I don't need no other lover.
Something in her style that shows me.
I don't want to leave her now,
You know I believe and how.
You're asking me will my love grow,
I don't know, I don't know.
You stick around now it may show,
I don't know, I don't know.
Something in the way she knows
And all I have to do is think of her,
Something in the things she shows me.
I don't want to leave her now,
You know I believe and how.



I know many of you are going thru some rough times. It seems that this year is not promising that change that we all so desperately needed and wanted. I am sorry for that, I truly am. Life is not always that bowl of cherries that we think it will be when we are children. Sometimes it royally sucks... but if you are reading this, than know in your heart that you have ONE person that cares. I honestly do. smile

Fishii

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deflicted:
well ur sets are very mcsteamy

and asterlee she is just a little bit of yummy yummy isn't she biggrin
brightredscream:
You realize that you're SUCH a beautiful soul right?

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