Long night at work.
This has really been a very long week for me. The nice thing is I got paid more money than at the Zone. I actually made almost double than I would have at the head shop in TWO weeks!!
and yes, I will still be broke!
I honestly tho cant wait until I get out at 9 pm instead of midnight. This is killing me. I am horribly lonely and its actually making me sick. I got a migraine at work tonight and threw up like 5 times! Plus the upstairs bathroom was closed so everytime I had to go thru the upstairs call center, down the elevator, thru the DOWNSTAIRS call center and than to the bathroom on the other side! I made it each time tho! 
Tori rushes me home after work, and when we get here apparently there was a fire in the building next to me and there was a HUGE hole in the middle of the parking lot. When the fire dept hooked up the hose it blew a water line so our water is shut off! My car was the only one in the parking lot because I was at work and I had to move it faaaar away! The water dude watched me walk to my apt tho which was nice. 
Except, now I am home alone, bored, tired but wired, with no water and no one to chill with.
Maybe i SHOULD make some more friends here while I am stuck in NM? sigh I dont know.
I kinda feel all emo...but kinda not.
I kinda feel sad, yet happy that I have a better job.
I kinda feel lonely, but I know I have some great friends here.
*big sigh*
I just wish I could come home and have someone here. Even if they are asleep it would be a warm body in the house.
I know this is temporary and all blah blah blah but I am sitting here looking at a computer screen sick as a dog and have no one here to just chill on the couch and watch a movie with.
A pisces is supposed to LIKE seclusion. Time away from the world.
I guess I am a DIFFERENT kind of fish.
I"M sorry for posting yet ANOTHER whiny blog...I just havent been able to completely escape the feeling that I am all alone. No matter how many wonderful comments I get on here. No matter how many fantastic phone calls I get, I am still very aware that I am all alone.
I guess I should just do what I know you are all thinking and suck it up and do what I have to do.
I WISH I was strong like that.
Unfortunately, I am not.
I....am...alone.
I guess this is why drugs and alcohol were invented...I have the drugs, I have the alcohol, yet dont have the desire to get up and get EITHER.
UPDATE
So its 3:30 in the morning. I THOUGHT I was dont throwing up but I was wrong. Because of the fire I mentioned above, they are jack hammering about 3-4 car lengths OUT SIDE MY FUCKING WINDOW!! Yes yes yes i KNOW its so we have water in the morning but jebus christ on a fucking dry ass cracker I am very sick and need some sleep!!!
Thats it. I am gonna HAVE to murder someone.
aaaaaand now I am crying. Migraine. Vomiting. exhausted. REAL jack hammer outside.
Is this hell? Why did I come to HELL? I thought the DECENT ppl went someplace with nice things like chocolate and great sex and things that smell nice and ppl that love you surrounding you. I have the COMPLETE opposite right now.
sigh
Hello Jack hammer my name is Pisces. Since you crawled up my ass and resided in my brain I thought I would introduce myself.
This has really been a very long week for me. The nice thing is I got paid more money than at the Zone. I actually made almost double than I would have at the head shop in TWO weeks!!
and yes, I will still be broke!
I honestly tho cant wait until I get out at 9 pm instead of midnight. This is killing me. I am horribly lonely and its actually making me sick. I got a migraine at work tonight and threw up like 5 times! Plus the upstairs bathroom was closed so everytime I had to go thru the upstairs call center, down the elevator, thru the DOWNSTAIRS call center and than to the bathroom on the other side! I made it each time tho!
Tori rushes me home after work, and when we get here apparently there was a fire in the building next to me and there was a HUGE hole in the middle of the parking lot. When the fire dept hooked up the hose it blew a water line so our water is shut off! My car was the only one in the parking lot because I was at work and I had to move it faaaar away!
The water dude watched me walk to my apt tho which was nice. Except, now I am home alone, bored, tired but wired, with no water and no one to chill with.
Maybe i SHOULD make some more friends here while I am stuck in NM? sigh I dont know.
I kinda feel all emo...but kinda not.
I kinda feel sad, yet happy that I have a better job.
I kinda feel lonely, but I know I have some great friends here.
*big sigh*
I just wish I could come home and have someone here. Even if they are asleep it would be a warm body in the house.
I know this is temporary and all blah blah blah but I am sitting here looking at a computer screen sick as a dog and have no one here to just chill on the couch and watch a movie with.
A pisces is supposed to LIKE seclusion. Time away from the world.
I guess I am a DIFFERENT kind of fish.
I"M sorry for posting yet ANOTHER whiny blog...I just havent been able to completely escape the feeling that I am all alone. No matter how many wonderful comments I get on here. No matter how many fantastic phone calls I get, I am still very aware that I am all alone.
I guess I should just do what I know you are all thinking and suck it up and do what I have to do.
I WISH I was strong like that.
Unfortunately, I am not.
I....am...alone.
I guess this is why drugs and alcohol were invented...I have the drugs, I have the alcohol, yet dont have the desire to get up and get EITHER.
UPDATE
So its 3:30 in the morning. I THOUGHT I was dont throwing up but I was wrong. Because of the fire I mentioned above, they are jack hammering about 3-4 car lengths OUT SIDE MY FUCKING WINDOW!! Yes yes yes i KNOW its so we have water in the morning but jebus christ on a fucking dry ass cracker I am very sick and need some sleep!!!
Thats it. I am gonna HAVE to murder someone.
aaaaaand now I am crying. Migraine. Vomiting. exhausted. REAL jack hammer outside.
Is this hell? Why did I come to HELL? I thought the DECENT ppl went someplace with nice things like chocolate and great sex and things that smell nice and ppl that love you surrounding you. I have the COMPLETE opposite right now.
sigh
Hello Jack hammer my name is Pisces. Since you crawled up my ass and resided in my brain I thought I would introduce myself.
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just keep focused, all this shitty stuff going on is gonna turn into good stuff in a matter of time. i mean you got yourself a better paying job, this is exactly what you wanted. just give yourself time, you will settle into the new schedule and stuff. and stay positive, you're in my thoughts!
and hey, if you need someone to talk to gimme a call. i hardly sleep thru the week.
Don't know if you ever seen Family Guy, but Stewie always puts a smile on my face, so hopefully he'll put a smile on your face too.