They can wake up in the morning and make a pact with themselves to be happy, make someone smile, and yet they STILL will have bad things happen. They have that continual "rain cloud" hanging over their head.
Sometimes it doesnt matter how positive someone can be, it still continues to figuratively rain on them.
I was sent a beautiful message this morning that came at a very necessary time in my life. Here is a small part from that message that came with a friend request:
"When I realized the magnitude of your own personal struggles, I was touched all the more.
You've really made my day (which has been a particularly painful one) with the attitude, energy, and empowerment you exude. I wanted to thank you for that... "
This person had no way of knowing that this message came at a time when I was about to actually give up. I didnt FEEL strong. I didnt FEEL like i have a positive attitude. I didnt FEEL any positive energy. Now thanks to my new friend NeoPop and spooky520 I feel almost recharged and ready to take on what is going to be the most difficult time I have had in many many years. So thanks you to them both. They both suffer and yes sometimes its not always easy to be "nice" and "diplomatic" but they realize this and come back all the more wiser for it!
What brought all this on? This.
So unless a laptop falls out of the sky I will probably not be on hardly at all once i have surgery. My mom doesnt have a computer and I am gonna have to move in with her. I am a genius on crutches (I even went to a concert on crutches! LOL) and she is NOT! Arthritis in her hands arms and back make crutches almost impossible. I can FLY up and down stairs almost like they are a part of me! ahahahahaha
My computer is a desktop and with all my money going out for my shoot and things that others needed this week (no Heroine NOT you doll! 
) money is preventing me from buying a laptop. That plus bad credit!
So...if I dont get back to you right away please please please be patient. I will hopefully be able to borrow Jakeanuggets laptop once in awhile but not having a way to reach the outside world is going to make my healing slower. I know thats weird but smiling helps the healing process and this place makes me smile.
Sorry this is so long.....I had a lot to say.
I love you all so much. if you have my number, txt me BEFORE 9 my time. I will have my cell phone always!
Pisces
I got this from a friend of mine the other day...she makes me smile!
But I do believe in you Dollface!
Close your eyes. Can you feel it? I'm giving you a massage and you are giving me all you bad stuff and I'm giving you all my good stuff. Dosen't that feel nice?