mrsted_stryker

Thank you all for your words of encouragement.

Unfortunately things have gotten worse.

Me and the boy issues are just the tip of the iceberg tho...

My foot hurts so bad that I actually almost pass out from pain and I throw up I hurt so bad. My mom is having surgery next week so I have to take care of her for 8 weeks and cant have surgery until then. I am taking 750 mg of Vicodin and its not touching the pain. Needless to say I am not thinking super clearly.

Work sucks. Not just sucks but is so bad that when I am there I am wishing for this:



To either blow my own head off or climb up on the roof and start shooting at customers and employees.
Too bad I'm not ACTUALLY crazy enough to do either.

I also had the thought today that I should start doing Heroin. That way I would only care about getting my fix and nothing else but once again I am not dumb enough to go that far.

so instead I had a nervous breakdown at work and started crying and yelling and left an hour and a half early.
Not sure if I'm going back tomorrow.
Roman gave me a nug of grade and told me to take a bath.

If I dont answer messages I am sorry/
If I dont answer my cell than call my home phone or txt me.
If I dont answer that well...I will get back to you eventually.

I am stressed about bills
I am stressed about work
I am stressed about my health
I am stressed about my moms surgery
I am stressed about my foot
I am stressed about the boy

I am overwhelmed and ready to crawl in bed and never leave my house.
I know you all think I am strong but even the strongest humans break when they hit a brick wall going 100 miles an hour!

I'm done.