Thursday Feb 21, 2008

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WOW. Ever have one of those days when you wish you could just go back to bed and start over?

I get up and start cleaning and some punk kid is pulling the fire alarm in my building! So I called the cops. I am such the Geezer now...I would have run out to catch him/her but I am not fast enough...its cold outside and my bones are aching...damn..

THEN I am washing dishes and I start to run the garbage disposal and it backs up. I dont have a plunger...so I had to call the office. An hour ago and i am still waiting.

Rant about my mom

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I am JUST getting ready to get into the shower and my mom calls...for the third time today. When she called the second time I was saying goodbye to a cop and I failed to ask her how her doctor appointment went. She was already pissed that I didnt go (even tho she told me not to the other day) and then she calls me and is pissed and starts yelling at me because I didnt ask how it went. She told me I dont care about her. I told her "well, when you act THIS way Sybil I sure as hell dont. THIS is why I hang up on you. Goodbye." and I hung up. I mean she told me I was a bad person for not asking. That it didnt matter if I stayed Christian or switched to the ridiculous Buddha...that I was always gonna be a horrible person. WTF??? That woman is so fucking crazy! So I am now nicknaming her. She is mom (Donna) or Sybil. I think it fits. I never know which one i am talking to...
And she wonders why I am moving!?


which brings me to another spoiler...

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If I seem distant or sad I just want you to know that I am. I hate it here. Every little thing that goes wrong makes it worse for me. I know I need to find a job making more money so I can save to move but honestly I dont know what I would do without that place. As much as it bugs me sometimes I really am not ready to say goodbye. I could if I was moving...but I can say goodbye and stay in the same city for some reason.
I cry all the time when I am alone. I cant take it here anymore. I need to get away from my mom and away from this city...for MY sanity!
So if I am quiet or different in any way I am sorry...I am just not happy right now with my situation.



Well I am gonna go shower. I am chillin with Bocaj138 today. We are gonna go scope out the competition and screw around for a bit. I haven't dont that in ages!!

I have so much more to say but not enough space and time to say it in..

I loves ya!

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OK so I know this song is about a guy...but I keep listening to it thinking about this place that i live...it fits. A good friend on here gave this to me when I broke up with Sean...but I think it fits my current living situation more. And if you can find THIS VERSION anywhere please let me know. I cant seem to find the english version to BUY!!

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trixxx:
you, sabine and I seem to all come from the same momma. mad I'm sorry that she is making you nuts!! the only thing that saved my sanity with my relationship with my Ma was that I moved away...We had years of no contact and then came back together and hashed it all out when I started having kids. I wanted to make sure that she WOULD not be the negative influence in their lives like she was in mine.

Good luck with everything babe!!! (the fire alarm story made me gigle, was the cop cute?)
tunnel_vision:
I'm not sure I could make it to the airport in this shit ... and even then my flight might be delayed or cancelled if the airport gets shut down frown

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