Hello altporn friends!
I've just finished trying to make myself sexy, but not too hot, which is super hard to find a balance between.. because casual sex guy is on his way over right now! Haha.. I feel like suuuuch a dweeb. But I've got a bit more of a crush on him than before, so I've put this nervous pressure on myself to make him find me irresistible. See? Dweeb!!
We ended up hanging out last Friday, which led to sexytimes. And then we hung out again last Monday night, which resulted in.. spooning on the couch for 3 hours watching The Office Season 3?! HA! Who would have thought! And no sexytimes, but that was just because it was 6am when he left and I had to work at 1pm!
Ohh to be single..
BUT I hung out with the ex last night, trying to be nice. Myself, casual sex guy, and my ex were all at the same show on Saturday night, which was slightly awkward. I wasn't drinking so I had full control over the situation, which is a good thing because my oracle foresaw a violent verbal exchange. I don't want that to ever happen, but I wouldn't put it past the neurotic tendencies that my ex has been demonstrating as of late. I only said about 3 words in total to my ex that night.
I realize now that I really don't want him back at all. It takes a while to really get your head on straight, and now I feel like a million bucks! We hung out, he tried to kiss me, and I said "no", and then I asked him to drive me home. I think he gets it now.. but it just sucks to think that maybe he'll only truly get it if we stop hanging out completely. I never wanted that, but I can't have him make advances every time we're together.
Blah..
Okay.. I have stop the blog here because it'd be terribly embarrassing if casual sex guy showed up while I was writing this.
Sooo... talk later!
P.S. Who wants drunken Toronto hangouts Friday night?!!
I've just finished trying to make myself sexy, but not too hot, which is super hard to find a balance between.. because casual sex guy is on his way over right now! Haha.. I feel like suuuuch a dweeb. But I've got a bit more of a crush on him than before, so I've put this nervous pressure on myself to make him find me irresistible. See? Dweeb!!
We ended up hanging out last Friday, which led to sexytimes. And then we hung out again last Monday night, which resulted in.. spooning on the couch for 3 hours watching The Office Season 3?! HA! Who would have thought! And no sexytimes, but that was just because it was 6am when he left and I had to work at 1pm!
Ohh to be single..
BUT I hung out with the ex last night, trying to be nice. Myself, casual sex guy, and my ex were all at the same show on Saturday night, which was slightly awkward. I wasn't drinking so I had full control over the situation, which is a good thing because my oracle foresaw a violent verbal exchange. I don't want that to ever happen, but I wouldn't put it past the neurotic tendencies that my ex has been demonstrating as of late. I only said about 3 words in total to my ex that night.
I realize now that I really don't want him back at all. It takes a while to really get your head on straight, and now I feel like a million bucks! We hung out, he tried to kiss me, and I said "no", and then I asked him to drive me home. I think he gets it now.. but it just sucks to think that maybe he'll only truly get it if we stop hanging out completely. I never wanted that, but I can't have him make advances every time we're together.
Blah..
Okay.. I have stop the blog here because it'd be terribly embarrassing if casual sex guy showed up while I was writing this.
Sooo... talk later!
P.S. Who wants drunken Toronto hangouts Friday night?!!
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