Tuesday Oct 13, 2009

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Allo Monsieurs et Madames!

I've pretty much had the craziest 5 days evaar. Here goes. And I'm sorry if it's long.. tongue
For your convenience, if you'd like to skip over the crazy drama that is my recent breakup, don't read the spoiler. You can just head right on down to my sexy weekend!


SPOILERS! (Click to view)

Last weekend, my ex asked me if I'd go see Zombieland with him. He said he really missed hanging out with me, and since we had talked about how we'd like to stay friends, I figured the only way to find out if we could be friends right now is by dipping my foot in the water.
Anyhow, I get a bunch of texts at 8am on Thursday, and it's him asking me if he could take me for beers. I thoguht this was kind of weird, but thought maybe since it'd be a more social environment than a dark movie theatre it might be an alright way to break the ice for us, so to speak. And then, he texts me:
"Before I meet you tonight, is there anything you think I should know?"
Me: "What do you mean?"
Ex:"Well, I've heard some things through the rumour mill. Are you seeing someone?"
Me:"I'm not seeing anyone in any way right now. What did you hear exactly?"
Ex:"Nothing really. I just had a hunch. I just get nervous. Would you be okay if we maybe just had some drinks at your place? We don't have to go to the bar."

So this is obviously his way of trying to gain time in privacy to talk to me about things. It totally threw me, since I had just gone through an ASSload of hard times, and was trying to move on with shit.
So my roomie finds out he's coming over, and she seems concerned and asks what I'd say if he asked me to try again with him. I told her I'd already made up my mind and that right now is not a good time for that. Then she proceeds to tell me this.. She didn't think it was really important to tell me before, but now that I thought he wanted to work on things, she thought I should know that a week after we broke up he was seen making out with some unidentified girl in a bar full of my friends.
Grossout. A week after, really??

Anyhow, he comes over, we have drinks, he cries and says it'd mean the world to him if I'd let him take me out and look at it as more than just friends. But then I tell him that I have also heard things through the grapevine, and I knew it was in fact true that he was seen kissing some girl.
I asked him if he was in contact with this girl and he says, "Well, yeah!" And then says, "But it's so important to me that I might get another shot with you, that I'd cut ties with certain people to make it happen."
WTF?! You're asking me to give you another chance, but basically securing a backup plan if I say no??
Eww. HUGE turnoff.

Anyhow, as the night passes and he gets more drunk, I had to decline some of his passes at me and deal with the awkwardness that was me having the upper hand. Oh, and then he says "I think this has been a lot harder for me than it has for you."
surrealeeekmadpuke
You're SO up your own ass that you don't even know it, buddy.

So anyhow, the next day I give in to my curiousity and ask him if this girl is going to be where he will be that night, as he told me he was going to Toronto to a show. And he says, "Yeah most likely." I shouldn't ahve bothered asking, but sometimes it's just hard not to.
Jesus Christ, dude. Get your shit together. I wouldn't have said yes to him anyways on Thursday night, but if he had any chance in hell, he totally blew it huge.
I told him how upsetting it was to me that he thoguht that was a good approach to take with this whole thing. It hurt to think that he thought I'm such a pushover that I'd forget about this public situation with another girl. He hasn't made contact with me since Friday morning, which is a huge change from the messages I'd get from him nearly everyday last week.



So it's Friday night, and I'm really bummed about everything that happened the night before. I'm almost renewed in a way, because I feel like Thursday sort of said, "Hey woman, you made the right decision. Stick to your guns, cause you deserve better!".
I called my friend and asked where the party was, and went on over to a friends.
There were about 12 of us drinking and having a rad time, and it was helping me forget about the bullshit and appreciate all of my friends!

A little bit into the night, this guy (who, by the way, is 'that' guy that you and your friends swoon over but can't tell anyone but eachother because you've all got boyfriends. Don't pretend you don't know what I'm talking about! wink) that I've always had a silent crush on, cleeeearly can't take his eyes off me, enough to make my girlfriend notice and giggle to me about it.
We end up flirting a little, and at the end of the night end up drunkenly holding hands. But eff dudes, it was CUTE. This guy is a romantic, I tells ya!
Thennn we end up making out in the secrecy of the kitchen for a minute. Oopsie!

We ended up at the same party on Sunday night, where he invited me back to his place "for pizza", HA. We totally did it, and it was haaawt.
And we woke his Mom. tongue And then he proceeded to tell me he's liked me for a long time and wants to take me out.
Awwwkward. I'll have to think about this one. Could have just been pillow talk though, ya know?

I'll be seeing him tonight more than likely at my friends' place. I asked him to keep tight lipped on our evening, since I didn't want my private life circulating at a time like this. He agreed, and was totally okay with that.
I'll be sure to fill you in on what happens with this, because I like to pretend that people take an interest in all of this bullshit that I blog about all the time, haha! eeek

That is my story. And yes, it was goood wink
xo

P.S. How was everyone's Thanksgiving?! NOMZzz!!

VIEW 10 of 10 COMMENTS
aandp:
oh don't you worry.
i'll totally do it with you.
just tell me when you wanna go.
aandp:
bwhahah i think thats the best comment i got on my journal.

ps - i had sidekicks tonight too. ooooh.

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