mrschainsaw

This is what's on my mind:

I'm excited for xmas, but I'm also frustrated because my visa is maxed out (actually, over the credit limit) and I am $100 in debt to myself. I still have 2 more gifts to buy, and if I had known that I was this financially fucked 2 days ago I would have never ordered that dress, but there it is anyway. I'm sure I'll work it out somehow. And I'm hoping that I get money for xmas, but I don't think that's happening since my family tends to be really cheap. Maybe it's because they're old.

A few days ago a friend from high school decided to cut me out of her life for no reason, and I'm still very hurt and offended by it. I always gave her the benefit of the doubt, even when I thought she was fucking mutual friends over, but this is ridiculous. From what I hear, she thought that her ex, who also happens to be one of my good friends, was threatening her and thus......I'm not even sure. I've always stayed out of their shit because it's none of my business, and I've always stuck up for her. She's a drama queen to say the least, but I always figured to each their own. So I wrote her an email and told her that she was a drama queen and a hypocrite, and I told her why. I didn't say it in a nasty way, I just said it. Then I said goodbye. I'm still angry, but I feel better. Actually, the more I think about the circumstances, the angrier I feel.

I don't think I ever mentioned this, but I sent in two sets last friday. They should be receiving them by tomorrow at the latest. I think they're good. Just good, not great or spectacular, but I'm also my toughest critic.

I wish I looked on the outside how I feel on the inside.

xo
Me