i read what you said to Cureelise and i myself have spent a number of months in bed. In hopitals too shuffling around in a robe and slippers. You are handsome, young, and from the information on your profile very intelligent. TRUST me that will come to fruitition, however long that may take. My life is like a constant pattern of the phoenix. As are those that i've observed of my next to kin. life is impermance even the worst self hatred gets it's chance to evolve. keep in mind i'm sharing from dark days past and dark days yet to come - i'm not some happy pappy little cheerleader who shoots rainbows outta her ass - but if you need aid i'll do what i can . . . .
you're right tomorrow could be worse...but then again it could be better than today.