mrmann

I am so confused. I remember why I now avoid girls like the plague. This girl I like a lot, I am not sure if she is stringing me along or if she really loves me.

This girl I have liked for the longest time. Writes me about how she really loves me and I write back so fucking excited about how I really feel as well.

So we get to talking and sort of plan a trip to Portland which I cancel because I can get no for sure date of departure, I am a little disappointed but sure whatever. It was a quick decision to go.

Then I offer to bring her down to Florida for a few days. Which she does not want to do?

Then I offer to go to see her up north. Spend my b-day there, maybe take a day trip, I dont know do something. Well she has to go to some golf tourney instead. She can hang out later though...

I really like this girl. But, GAHHHHH, I talk to her and think of how much I really love her. Then I get an ulcer the next day because of crap like this. It seems if I try to plan something it is an inconvenience for her. At the same time I feel like I might be trying to hard. At the same time I feel like I am a stepping-stone.

I give up, I have no idea what to do anymore.

Sometimes I just want to get back to the days I just read books, worked out, and saved money to move to Spain. I need to be a hermit, that way no one pisses you off.