mripperjack

I promised myself a long time ago after I had written my first several blogs that I wouldn't bother anymore unless I had something positive to say. Mostly because my family were starting to gain access to them and they worry about me enough as it is. That's why I barely post. I'm a incredibly negative person. So it is especially important that I update now while I still have the positive afterglow being experienced now. All the things that weighed heavy on my mind and were making adjustment to this city so difficult are finally starting to fall by the wayside.

I've finally found an awesome place to live after almost a year of living a pretty nomadic existence of sleeping on floors and subletting. I can lay down roots here and feel it in the core of my being. An almost spiritual feeling that assures peacefulness and sanctuary. My roomies are as awesome as they are mysterious. There is a profound respect and openness that I have never had with any other people I've lived with. There is tons of room to grow without burning out on each other.

After months of struggling and paying my dues in a soul draining internship, I finally worked a real paying shift in the industry at a respectable day rate. A huge step has been made. The future is open to me in ways I had hardly conceived while living in Orlando and it warms my little black heart.

Did I mention that I met a girl.... That was nice....

I abandoned writing this blog several times before committing to it. I need to remember this moment because it won't last. Things will change and hard times are ahead. The weather is already starting to turn sinisterly cold and bodes for an uneasy future. But now I have this. A record of my first experiences of success, that while outweighed by the ten months heart wrenching hurtles I surpassed since coming to this city, make it all worth it. I awaken to a new day with a sense of hope and control over my life that I've never had before. It feels good to be alive.