IT COULD BE MUCH WORSE
I don't know. I'm happy to be bored sometimes lately.
I listen to a lot of soft music because I don't want to feel to angry or motivated to move fast. My blood flows quick and my head pounds. I just try to relax and eat. My blood pressure is an egg shell I have to bubble wrap and suspend from a rubberband over a trampoline made of feathers. The hydrocodone helps but its hard to tell how much its doing until it wears off. I have to stay calm. I have to stay calm. I'm almost done with this Niven Book and I got some more Vonnegut on deck. I have to make a ton of phone calls today. Mostly to people who won't come to the phone or call me back about legal shit that has to do with me being attacked and how I'm going to get my medical bills paid. Its lots of fun.
But I am lucky. People die for no good reason everyday. People that have never been in love. People are hurt in extremely worse ways everyday of their own accord and have no one to blame. People that have never made some of the best food they've ver tasted. I am happy to be alive. That I have control of my faculties and that I can still see and hear. I am happy that I have no obvious brain damage. Though, that would be hard to tell since all the experimenting in high school. I can still do something to make my life relevant. I can still try.
Pardon the sentimentality.
I don't know. I'm happy to be bored sometimes lately.
I listen to a lot of soft music because I don't want to feel to angry or motivated to move fast. My blood flows quick and my head pounds. I just try to relax and eat. My blood pressure is an egg shell I have to bubble wrap and suspend from a rubberband over a trampoline made of feathers. The hydrocodone helps but its hard to tell how much its doing until it wears off. I have to stay calm. I have to stay calm. I'm almost done with this Niven Book and I got some more Vonnegut on deck. I have to make a ton of phone calls today. Mostly to people who won't come to the phone or call me back about legal shit that has to do with me being attacked and how I'm going to get my medical bills paid. Its lots of fun.
But I am lucky. People die for no good reason everyday. People that have never been in love. People are hurt in extremely worse ways everyday of their own accord and have no one to blame. People that have never made some of the best food they've ver tasted. I am happy to be alive. That I have control of my faculties and that I can still see and hear. I am happy that I have no obvious brain damage. Though, that would be hard to tell since all the experimenting in high school. I can still do something to make my life relevant. I can still try.
Pardon the sentimentality.
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oh wait. it think what's pictured above is better referred to as motor-boaten.