Love, is it emotion or pain. We all experience its pain in some form. The pain sucks, and can make you not give a damn about actually feeling the good side of what love is. When you get burned by it so many times, you think fuck it, why bother. That's where I am at. Honestly it sucks. I feel alone, but its easier to be alone of my own doing then being hurt for crappy emotions. I think I have control, but do I? I try to get over the fears, but it is scary to think about dealing with the loss of love one more time.
Sorry about my rant!
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satanachist:
You have been flirting around the idea of taking emotional risks. If now isn't the time that is alright but take time to figure out what you really want (like write a list). Don't just take whatever comes along. If it were me though I would hit it with the classy woman cuz you are leaving town anyway. It is so easy when there is a defined endpoint :)
iceboxdonkey:
Yup it sucks. But you do get past it. I've tried a few times and always promised the new girls the same thing. "No I would never leave you if my ex comes back." I did every single effin time :). Can't do that to another sweet girl. But I am finally good now.