thoughts on a january morning
(delayed and edited)
my mind races full of thoughts...keep coming...i should be sleeping now...work at 7am...no dice!...yes, Celine has overtaken my writing style completely...ellipses galore now...things on my mind...unloading them in hopes i can sleep some...new year...time for some changes!...finally take control of some things...no more surprises there...i'll have to move soon...start a new job...probably in a new town...have to be prepared for that...the concerts have already been given new restrictions...sticking to those nicely thus far...if i do say so myself!...and i do!...
also this year, more questioning of things...time to speak my mind in all company no matter what!...voice my opinions...open them to challenge...only way to develop good arguments...strengthen my beliefs and stances...and FUCK the propaganda machine!...fingers dug into my ears now!...can't hear the bullshit!...maybe study history more!...never paid attention much...seemed unnecessary...oops!...i'll look into...explore...learn...about everything going on...from every side possible!...
i miss Ministry being good...nothing lasts forever i suppose...true after all!...but a boy can dream...as can girls...men...ladies...etc.
...I'm tired of having crushes on girls who aren't available...all of them, either taken or far away...no more settling!...no more excuses!...i know the standards i have, and that's what i stick to from now on...to hell with those who won't let go of the past!...don't even talk to me!...go far away and never darken my doorstep again!...you don't see me whining about my past relationships...trying to go out with people i've broken up with...I MOVE ON!...no trying to cling to them...i don't care if i'm alone...it beats being stuck in a situation i'm unhappy with...everyone should be willing to adapt, evolve, move forward...stasis is not an ideal!
end of thoughts for display here.
yes, i'm making some changes, ones that are necessary and positive. and those are the changes which are always the best to make. other than that, school starts up tomorrow for the last time...yeah, i'm excited.
good night, whoever you are...
(delayed and edited)
my mind races full of thoughts...keep coming...i should be sleeping now...work at 7am...no dice!...yes, Celine has overtaken my writing style completely...ellipses galore now...things on my mind...unloading them in hopes i can sleep some...new year...time for some changes!...finally take control of some things...no more surprises there...i'll have to move soon...start a new job...probably in a new town...have to be prepared for that...the concerts have already been given new restrictions...sticking to those nicely thus far...if i do say so myself!...and i do!...
also this year, more questioning of things...time to speak my mind in all company no matter what!...voice my opinions...open them to challenge...only way to develop good arguments...strengthen my beliefs and stances...and FUCK the propaganda machine!...fingers dug into my ears now!...can't hear the bullshit!...maybe study history more!...never paid attention much...seemed unnecessary...oops!...i'll look into...explore...learn...about everything going on...from every side possible!...
i miss Ministry being good...nothing lasts forever i suppose...true after all!...but a boy can dream...as can girls...men...ladies...etc.
...I'm tired of having crushes on girls who aren't available...all of them, either taken or far away...no more settling!...no more excuses!...i know the standards i have, and that's what i stick to from now on...to hell with those who won't let go of the past!...don't even talk to me!...go far away and never darken my doorstep again!...you don't see me whining about my past relationships...trying to go out with people i've broken up with...I MOVE ON!...no trying to cling to them...i don't care if i'm alone...it beats being stuck in a situation i'm unhappy with...everyone should be willing to adapt, evolve, move forward...stasis is not an ideal!
end of thoughts for display here.
yes, i'm making some changes, ones that are necessary and positive. and those are the changes which are always the best to make. other than that, school starts up tomorrow for the last time...yeah, i'm excited.
good night, whoever you are...
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niobe:
I'm ready now. 
maude:
you know what i just noticed, you're in Denton....i have a friend (well, he is technically my boyfriend's friend) who's from there. he lives in NYC now and we stayed with him when we were there last fall. not that i'm assuming you know him. i have absolutely no idea how big Denton is.