mrdisposal

suicide girls: strongly independent, smart, sexy girls.... afraid to show their crotch.


i wish i could have drank tonight. i am sick as fuck. my cold medicine wore off pretty much right when i got home. i probably won't be able to sleep tonight now, cuz the cold medicine is upstairs and i don't feel like risking waking my mom up and taking a bunch of shit. one of our hamsters has wet tail i discovered tonight. i'll be suprised if it's still alive in the morning. i'm pretty sure it's not my fault but you always wonder. i've been up for hours trying to give it water so that it won't die of dehydration. it makes this really pathetic sound every now and again. like a sighing almost. fucking ruins my week that's for sure. i love those furry little jerks. i don't think i can have anymore once they die. they die so easily. and they never live more than a couple of years. i get attatched to the little rat bastards. the first hamster i had i took from a friend and it died within a few months. the second hamster i had didn't even surpass infancy before dying. shuttle, my third hamster, was the best ever. she was the coolest pet in the world. i found her in a parking lot while delivering pizza. when i got her she was old i could tell. she wasn't very active but she was fuckin cool. we had her about 8 months or so before she died. now these two... well the one with wet tail has always been a runt. that's why i'm pretty sure he will die. he never really ate much. and the other one is a big fatty. i'm not too worried about him, but i will be pissed if he gets wet tail also. ugh.

i have serious money issues again. i can't buy anything else for myself for a while and i really mean it this time.
shit doesn't feel right right now.
i can't really explain it. i feel a depression spell coming. haven't had one of those in almost 2 years now.

i'm gonna get back to not being able to breathe from this stupid cold and worrying about everything.