Vie no longer, lady, Fie nowhere;
Thine heart deceived thee;
To say with disdain, discontent, scaled on tare;
Soul, Essence of life set free
Beckon me no mo, no mo
To quondam, forsaken I go
Perchance thou remember us
Converting iniquitous and so
Into a day of convalesce
Shed no more saline, dried today
So shall begin the blithe
Held together, room full, a soiree...
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Thine heart deceived thee;
To say with disdain, discontent, scaled on tare;
Soul, Essence of life set free
Beckon me no mo, no mo
To quondam, forsaken I go
Perchance thou remember us
Converting iniquitous and so
Into a day of convalesce
Shed no more saline, dried today
So shall begin the blithe
Held together, room full, a soiree...
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Sorry, I haven't updated recently...I have been extremely busy with ebay and other things. Work has been killing me slowly.
On the plus side i found the perfect line for my next poem...i just have to figur out the rest of it
Living in the shadow of a thorn.
I love the imagery of it.
I will try to update more quickly next time....by the...
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On the plus side i found the perfect line for my next poem...i just have to figur out the rest of it
Living in the shadow of a thorn.
I love the imagery of it.
I will try to update more quickly next time....by the...
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angelvanilla:
you've got mail! 
So I sit here..dwelling on so much useless shite. Why, oh why...I should just go on and live in the moment.
Strange thing is that everything in the past couple of days has told me to live in the moment...but to not get close to anyone... weird. I don't understand what the second part means but oh well.
by the way the messages are coming...
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Strange thing is that everything in the past couple of days has told me to live in the moment...but to not get close to anyone... weird. I don't understand what the second part means but oh well.
by the way the messages are coming...
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hotbonbon:
Cool! that's great! I live in North Van which is pretty close - I used to live in West Van by Horseshoe Bay - was spectacular. And no offense my MY cat is the best ever!! Hamish is the name, falling off fences is his game! Pudgy and unlithe, he is lovable and strangely gorgeous. Check out my page for a gander. He is a spectacle.
Welcome to BC in June!
Welcome to BC in June!
lucylynne:
ohh. I saw Much ado about Nothing at the movie theater. It is such a happy tale! Much more uplifting than most of his other plays!
Masquerade
She pulls back the wings of her hair
The feathers of the raven tied back
She puts on her mascara, darkens the eyes
Reddens her strawberry lips, with a fire red
Cheeks flushed with colour from the wine
She adorns the faade needed
They are announced at the party
People unknown, behind the masks
The beauty of it all, hidden away
Then they take...
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She pulls back the wings of her hair
The feathers of the raven tied back
She puts on her mascara, darkens the eyes
Reddens her strawberry lips, with a fire red
Cheeks flushed with colour from the wine
She adorns the faade needed
They are announced at the party
People unknown, behind the masks
The beauty of it all, hidden away
Then they take...
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Well,
I have started the process to the final countdown to getting to BC. It is going to be the end of June. I would like to be there for my birthday which is just two short days into July. I thought about what bonbon said, and she was right. I, however don't think that Vancouver is that small of a place...but the chances of...
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I have started the process to the final countdown to getting to BC. It is going to be the end of June. I would like to be there for my birthday which is just two short days into July. I thought about what bonbon said, and she was right. I, however don't think that Vancouver is that small of a place...but the chances of...
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rubysparkle:
Oh good for you! Taking chances really lets you know you're alive!
mrdaft:
oops...i was refering to running into my exgf...not bonbon....oops
Bonbon I could teach you ebay, no problems.
Bonbon I could teach you ebay, no problems.
Welcome to the worlds longest journal entry as per your request.
Well, while I bite my lip on it, for many reasons, the drastic change change that I am 99% sure that I am going to be making in the next few months is that I am going to be moving to Vancouver and closing down the store that I own here. It is not...
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Well, while I bite my lip on it, for many reasons, the drastic change change that I am 99% sure that I am going to be making in the next few months is that I am going to be moving to Vancouver and closing down the store that I own here. It is not...
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synchrona:
out of curiosity, what type of store do you own?
hotbonbon:
Holy cow. That's a doosie. I moved from Calgary 10 years ago and now this is my home. I almost moved to Toronto, had bought my one-way ticket, quit my job, sold my stuff and told everyone I was outa here....wanted out of finance career, hated the men here, then about a month before my date of departure I ended up meeting my now-husband. Talk about not looking for anything! Point being - I wouldn't have the happy life I know have with the man of beyond my dreams, a beauteous son whom I find ways to love more every day and a sense of self that is always evolving. I am a big proponent of shaking your tree up. I'm a huge risk-taker. re: your ex....Vancouver isn't that big frankly and you may run into her.....eh...so what? move on with your life. You sound incredibly bright, creative full of life and energy and frankly, as a girl who was looking for some redeeming qualities in men in this sometimes-gawd-forsaken-shithole-of-a-town (ok I went through a love/hate period with Vancouver), we need more great guys in this town. Look at it as an act of public service. Vancouver needs men!!! I think you'd thrive out here...(plus maybe you could teach me to sell stuff on eBay....I'm crap at that....)I think you'd really bloom here. This is of course going on a few journal entries, but I feel your plight and in general think that a change of scenery is damn good medicine. Vancouver is great therapy. After years there are times I still feel like a tourist in my own city. I feel at home here. We are moving to the Island in 3 years or so to build a sustainable home on a mountain near Courtney. What a life hey? Come.....the mountains beckon.
The past is the past - we only have tomorrow and shall not rue yesterday. Do not make yourself or anyone in your future pay for some shitbag's mistakes and mistreatment of you. Big mistake. Give yourself what you deserve. If you have an uncomfortable, (painful even) "bump into" with your ex...it'll make you stronger. It's happened to me and I got over it. Amazing huh? We are remarkably resilient creatures, we humans. Don't let our species down.
Peace.
The past is the past - we only have tomorrow and shall not rue yesterday. Do not make yourself or anyone in your future pay for some shitbag's mistakes and mistreatment of you. Big mistake. Give yourself what you deserve. If you have an uncomfortable, (painful even) "bump into" with your ex...it'll make you stronger. It's happened to me and I got over it. Amazing huh? We are remarkably resilient creatures, we humans. Don't let our species down.
Peace.
Okay, well I pretty much made it official today that I am going to go through with the drastic change in my life. Now it is a matter of timing....lots to tidy up here before I can do it. All i can say is that when it is all said and done i should have a nice nest egg to start with too. that should...
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hotbonbon:
I'm very curious as to what this drastic change in your life is. The imagination is a fascinating thing. I"m shocked and appalled at the things I can conjure up about a total stranger and their life that I know almost nothing about, save a few journal posts....I shall stay tuned!
arete:
i agree with the above.....what IS this drastic change you speak of? 
Okay, well things are still changing at such a pace I don't have a clue what is going on or what will happen. I can say thank you to both Ruby_Sparkle and LucyLynne (Both are awesome women). Their opinions do help me on my decision that I have to make...I am most likely going to go through with it, just not as quick as I...
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rubysparkle:
You're welcome! Congrats on having your play performed! I went to U of M too!
Well, what to say...there is going tobe a major choice...actually change in my life soon. I don't know how I feel about it, I am excited on one hand and depressed on the other hand. I am not sure if it is the right move, but something is beckoning me to do it. So I feel that I must, all I can ask in someway...
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lucylynne:
Yeah, I dont konw what u are talking about but if you are thinking of changing something about your life for the good of it, i say take the chance.
sapphic_plastic:
welcome to the big dysfunctional family!
i don't usually accept friend requests unless people introduce themselves first, but you seem cool.
say hi sometime!
[Edited on Jan 26, 2005 4:34PM]
i don't usually accept friend requests unless people introduce themselves first, but you seem cool.
say hi sometime!
[Edited on Jan 26, 2005 4:34PM]
So, In this so called journey of life, i realize how messed up I am. The world swirls around me like cotton candy in the machine. I only pick up bits and parts; here and there. I am not sure what to do about anything anymore. I am trying to do so much and I am still entangled in this web of mine, the past,...
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mrdaft:
I will have to check that one out...I like books like that, even if they are boring. Well except "The Bell Jar" by Plath. I found that her book was incoherant at best. Her book ended in middle of chapters, bounced around too much...perhaps I just didn't read it at the right time in my life (maybe I should try it again). Orwell's 1984 is my fav book that is about being underappreciated. I love the fact that the main character is forced to fit in at the end of the book. I am reading polaraids from the dead now...pretty interesting you might want to check it out. It's a bunch of short stories
gonzoe:
very interesting. i've found some of the stuff i needed since that post, but i'll still see what you have. i'm still looking for:
hellblazer #177 to current
powers #2
tank girl (tpb's or full run sets)
the invisibles (tpb's or full run sets)
scud: the disposable assassin (tpb's or full run sets)
the maxx (tpb's or full run sets)
the "tpb's or full run sets" thing means that i don't want like issues #2 and #4 of Tank Girl: The Oddyssey or something. i want either the whole shebang or nothing at all. i don't want to have to dig around 10 other places to find the other, misc issues.
well, let me know what you got, if anything, and then we can talk more then. i got a paypal acount, so i can just transfer the $$ that way. hear back from you soon.
hellblazer #177 to current
powers #2
tank girl (tpb's or full run sets)
the invisibles (tpb's or full run sets)
scud: the disposable assassin (tpb's or full run sets)
the maxx (tpb's or full run sets)
the "tpb's or full run sets" thing means that i don't want like issues #2 and #4 of Tank Girl: The Oddyssey or something. i want either the whole shebang or nothing at all. i don't want to have to dig around 10 other places to find the other, misc issues.
well, let me know what you got, if anything, and then we can talk more then. i got a paypal acount, so i can just transfer the $$ that way. hear back from you soon.
Are you still moving to BC?
Is it still snow & cold there?
It's 21 & sunny here!
Yes it looks like another great day here. Sunny with clouds.
The lilacs have beeen blooming for a week now, tulips, daffodils and crocuses are done, rhododendrons are next to show off. Flowers start blooming in January, just so ya know. And many ppl I know have spent the last few days hanging out at the beach. Are you jealous yet??